Half of Me

(Y)

2012-01-26T18:41:00.000-08:00

IM OFFICIALLY 18

Without You...

2012-01-18T07:15:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Mhmm, Im currently working at International Federation of Red Cross (IFRC). Aaaand that is why I've been away from...most likely everything. Ya Allah, it is soooo tiring that I dont even have time for myself lagi lagi tengah in the process nak pindah rumah ke Sepang. Yet I have lots of fun working there because of my colleagues, they're nice. But the fact that I have to change from one tranportation to another, somehow lessen the spirit to go to the office day by day. The pay is quite high compared to my friends.

Im turning 18 soon, just a week more to go.

I almost forget about it. So yeah, my handphone so pandai that it suddenly stop functioning as if it knows that my birthday is coming soon. Dad, pls buy me a new one *begging with eyes wide open*

Wishlist :

1. Socks

2. Purse

3. Tank Tops

4. Handphone

5. Converse Sneakers

6. Lots of White Chocolates

7. Ralph Lauren Romance perfume

8. Fatima's hand-made card *sobs*

9. Handsome boyfriend, hahaha k tak

12 January, A Day Not to Forget

2012-01-17T13:33:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

AL-FATIHAH

FATIMA ZAHRAH OTHMAN HISHAM

I cant say much, I still cant accept that yre gone. Every memories keeps on playing back in my head. I cant even look at yr pictures, any of them. Not for now, I even avoid myself thinking bout you when only Allah knows how much I miss you. I just need time, I still think that yre still alive though I was there when you were buried :'[

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya hanya Engkau yang dapat menghubungkan aku dengan dia kini dan selamanya. Aku percaya bahawa sesungguhnya dia lebih bahagia di sana, tiada lagi kesakitan yang harus ditanggung olehnya. Aku harus redha dengan pemergiannya Yang Maha Esa tetapi doaku akan sentiasa bersamanya, insya-Allah.

To dearest...

Uncle Hisham, Aunty Anis, Adenan and Azri,

be strong okay? We will always pray the best for her. You can take us as yr daughter though it will never be the same, never. We shall leave this to Allah, the Greatest of all.

Waiting Outside The Line

2011-12-18T21:48:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

He is the one I've been talking about all this while, LOLOL

Logan Henderson
Y U SO CUTE? Y?
Btw, he is one of the Big Time Rush members. Ala, lagu B-B-Boyfriend tu ler. Dia ada dimple, dayyuum. I really really cant take my eyes off you. I like you to infinity and beyond :3

Sebenarnya I got nothing to say. Taktau nak update apa apa pun since I did nothing for ths whole week and even last week except for y'know my brother's wedding preparation. My sister-in-law is currently staying with us, Im really glad. So yeah, enjoy yr school holiday since it will end.......really soon but not for me :b

Looking forward to my family gathering right after my brother's wedding :{D

Never Felt So Real

2011-12-14T00:57:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

AND AGAIN, MAYBE I WAS WRONG

One more thg, lets just pretend I didnt go to the prom.

Prom Night

2011-12-09T15:16:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

I AM GOING TO PROM NIGHT

I AM NOT GOING TO PROM NIGHT

I AM GOING TO PROM NIGHT

I AM NOT GOING TO PROM NIGHT

I AM GOING TO PROM NIGHT

I AM NOT GOING TO PROM NIGHT

I HAVE NO IDEA

Everything depends on my daddy. So Nina, pray hard.

Best Thing I Ever Had

2011-12-08T08:56:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Today is exactly a week after spm

I was busy looking for a job but then, dad didnt seem to let me work. He asked me to take care of my lil sister. Dad, he's not a little girl anymore. But Im still gonna work, maybe somewhere nearby. Im sorry, yr allowance is not enough for me.

IM GOING TO WEAR BRACES SOON

Fuuuh, finally. I cant wait, I really am. I've been thinking about it since form 3 and now my dream will come true. Enough of braces. Y'know what? Most of my friends are busying with their driving license, and I.......do nothing. Because I've been driving for about 9 months already *berlagak* I wish you all the best friends, it isnt that easy at first but you will get used to it sooner or later.

Did you realise?

I rarely and usually avoid saying 'good luck'. Probably because I dont really believe in luck, y'know everything comes from Allah. As if yre gambling for yr life, you should pray for yr life. So, what Im trying to say is you better pray the best out of Allah instead of hoping for yr luck. 'All the best' is probably the best one for me now.

Picture posted by Nina

Venue ; School Museum

Mr. Know It All

2011-12-02T09:19:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

OUT OF SUDDEN, IM READY BEING US. IM READY TO BE YOUR SPECIAL ONE. I DONT KNOW THE EXACT REASON. MAYBE TIME HAS BROUGHT MY HEART TO YOU :]

A Thousand Years

2011-12-01T11:06:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Alhamdulillah, Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia is finally over for me. But not for others so yeah, Im not gonna be so excited about it. Im just glad its over. For me, the three Science subjects were quite tough or maybe they were tough. I can say Add Maths was better than trial. We shall pray for the best result, just let Allah handles that part.

Its 3.42 a.m.

I just couldnt go to sleep. I wanna text someone but then probably everyone is already asleep by now. Im feeling alone, empty and numb, all at the same time. Why am I so emo right now? Urrggh, I hate ths feeling...I really do. What is wrong with me? K k, moving on......Im gonna find for a job next week. I need money for so many things. Above all, I need it to help mom. Mom is moving to a new house, so she's been using lots of money. I guess I couldnt just sit and do nothing about it. Anyone would like to go with me? I would be happy to have a company :D

Hmph, about prom night. Im so sorry if I've posted that Im not coming but then again my friends, please go pleaaaaaase? You'll have so much fun there. Im only gonna go if there's anyone ask me for a date and....pay for the tickets. Hahahaha, k.

'I have faith in you'

I think I love you.....but then again Im confused. I just hope we can be friends, I just love you that much that I dont wanna lose everythg we had in 10 years ago and a thousand years to go. Pls, if you read this...think about it. I know you'll be mad. Im just not ready, maybe just because I had enough of ths love thingy. Or maybe Im a jerk, relationship aint working with me. Soooo, I dont wanna hurt you. It would be different, and I dont want that. Im not ready for a commitment. Pls text me and say smthg about it but I understand if yre not going to text me at all. Dilemma indeed :/ I feel like screaming so loud that the whole universe can hear me.

I wish I can marry my cat...ooops becareful of what you wish Syera. Hmph, senang nanti sape masuk meminang *bila aku dah ready* aku terima jela. *Terms and condition, lullz.

In Another Life

2011-11-18T10:26:00.001-08:00

Assalamualaikum

#lamatakupdate,hewhewhew -.-

SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA

Exactly, Im currently sitting for my SPM. 5 down, 5 more subjects to go which mean another 2 weeks more. Y'know since Kedah and Kelantan is off on Friday, so we'll be off on that day too. Sultan Johor's Birthday and Awal Muharram, another 2 more days off. And thats why it takes 3 weeks for my SPM.

STRESS, yes indeed. Since I used to have a pimple in my nose, can you imagine that? How painful it was. I rarely get any pimples, so yeah it hurts :/

"Saya maafkan awak"

That was the most wonderful, amazing yet so emotional moment. You still remember my teacher who was super duper mad at me? I was wrong, I thought I will never be forgiven because what I did is unforgivable. Couple days before SPM, she said that. Thank you, thank you very much regardless of what happened to me on that day. I really really appreciate that, you have bring me back to life :]

And to another teacher of mine, thank you for making me invisible. You have taught me so much about life, how to yell at people, how to not appreciate people, how to be 'kaki bodek', how to be so powerless and so on. I do value yr lessons but in a positive way such as......not to be any of them. Im sorry if Im being too rude but what you did is undefined disappointments.

I never hate you before even what you've done to me throughout the year, but y'know what makes me hate you now? It was what you did on my last day of school before my exam. I did say sorry but did you? Hmph.

To someone who has been there for me since standard 1,

thank you for the tips and other stuffs.

Most of all, thank you for all the supports :]

May we stay together till the end of our breath, insya-Allah.

Sceptical

2011-11-02T21:38:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Hello everyone.

Today, I would like to talk about food.

Last Wednesday, my class had lunch somewhere near Pavilion which is Jogoya, Starhill. But I refused to go because......yes because I was being scepticism.

Since y'know Im a Muslim, Im very particular about what I eat. I must know whether it is halal to eat or not. Jogoya has no sign of Halal and they even serve wine, do you expect me to go? Yes someone called that place, of course they will tell you it is halal.

THEY WANT CUSTOMERS!

Thank you Allah for strengthen me, yes I really really wanna go. I know I'd so much fun if I were there. But I love You more than anything, so even if they left me I will still have You :)

Aku tonggek hari-hari mengahadap Allah but then takkan aku nak makan benda yang belum tentu halal haramnya? Sedangkan banyak lagi makanan yang aku boleh makan. K, maybe non-muslims who read this may think that Muslim is so fussy or so on. But there's always a reason(s) for something that is set by Allah.

Bukan babi sahaja yang haram wahai manusia sekalian.

1. Binatang yang tidak disembelih

2. Minuman beralkohol

3. Pinggan, mangkuk, cawan dan gelas yang pernah digunakan untuk barang yang tidak halal

4. Binatang yang bertaring

5. Makanan yang dicuri dll

Bear in mind people, you are mostly what you eat.

I had enough...

2011-10-17T01:04:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Just stop for a minute and, answer

Everything must come to an end

So bff was just a myth?

I guess soooooo, you think?

I've done everything I could to make this thg up but you dont seem to be interested anymore. What will make you feel better? Seeing me cry or kneel in front of you? I posted on yr wall, I messaged you, I tried talking to you aaaand all I got was a creepy answer. I thought of trying to talk to you for the last time but after what happened today, I think it was a baaad idea. So, this thing must come to an end. For the last time, I know I was wrong and I am so sorry.

Prom Night

My school will held a prom night. Bunkface will be there and other indie bands. You know who else will be there? BOYS. I just dont like party maybe especially in a crowded place, I cant barely breathe. I just dont feel like going anyway. So yeah, have fun people :)

I wish...

2011-10-14T16:51:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Jawab jangan tak jawab, dosa nanti :)

Yes, I wish to marry a man who is very pious

Y'know orang alim alim, so it would be easier for me to go to heaven

I shall find someone who is most likely, Ustaz Ghazali

A very handsome, intelligent...k that's not my point. He is really nice towards people, even my mom likes him O.o He once said the relationship of you and other human being is very very much important. So, smile even just for a minute :) I remembered the first time he gave me a motivational talk when I was 15, including this year it has been three times. He taught me so much about life and of course Islam.

I promised to myself that no matter how people try to persuade me, saying that I look way prettier without wearing scarf a.k.a tudung, I will not listen to it. I believed that every rules that is set by Allah is reasonable. Im not scared to be disliked by anyone of you because Im most terrified of the Mighty Allah. I love You, may You always bless me and guide me to the right path. Kuatkanlah imanku hari demi hari ya Allah.

Amin~

Fire Bomb by Rihanna

2011-10-05T18:33:00.000-07:00

I LITERALLY CRIED AS I READ THROUGH MY PREVIOUS POSTS ABOUT YOU

CAUSE

I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I REALLY DO :(

THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE

NOW THAT YRE GONE

I really really want you :'(

2011-10-04T20:42:00.000-07:00

When will you be mine?

I've been wanting you since I bought my Cotton On denim jacket. Tapi kakak dan adikku juga mahukannya. Dimana dong?

I, myself have no idea why I still haven't buy that perfume. Probably because I barely buy any perfume or I prefer buying clothes. But this perfume might cost around MYR100-200. If you wish to buy me a present, why not this one? :P K, I obviously prefer Eau De Parfum but since Eau De Toilette is cheaper....so yeah. Anything as long as I can get it first before any of my sisters.

Aaaaand yes, I still want a DSLR AND BRACES.

#Sebulan lebih tak update, tup tup mintak itu ini. Apa daaa -.-

Tapi takkan asyik nak memekak pasal SPM sedangkan study pun malas :P

K k, byeeee.

Seminar SPM

2011-08-24T17:05:00.001-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Titerw datang nak ~~duit~~ raya.

Yaaaay! Raya lagi 5 hari, woohhoooo. Trial puuun makin dekat T_T Diam ah, titerw nak raya jea. Hahaha, k tak. Memang tak raya lah titerw tahun ni. Sehari jela titerw dapat kumpul duit raya. Kau pehal titerw titerw ni? Biar ah, comel apaaaaa. Huhuhuhu, kbye.

#PEACHES BY NEW HEIGHTS FTW (!)

Dlia ; Weh, cepatlah amik gambar kitorang.

Tika ; Dah amiklah.

Syera ; Bila masanya?

Tika ; Nah (rujuk gambar di atas)

Dlia&Syera ; -.-

Qilah, Tika and Dlia

Kami memang rajin, nampak beno nipunyer. Kbye

Some other people :)

#Maaf ter-rempit post kali ini

English words?

Neah, my english is bad

People keep saying it, so yeah.

Should I?

2011-08-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum :)

*Click for larger images

Based on their comments, most of them said I shouldnt wear. I waaaaant to but how will I look like? Its okay if I look prettier but how if I look uglier? :O

LOOK AT MY TEETH -.-

To those who asked me not to wear, I bet you will now

HI PEOPLE (Y)

2011-08-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Fuuuuh! I've been busy with stuffs, y'know stuffs. Soooo many thgs to tell yet I have too little time. Trial is coming up after this raya. Oh yeah, its fasting month now. So fast right, I know I know since I can still remember my first day in St. Mary when I was in Form 1.

Isnt she the cutest thing ever?

Did I ever tell you about ths cat? Well, we called her Kasih or Tuchy. She didnt really like being in our house at first. She didnt wanna eat and get sicked so easily. But now she is soooo fine, and I have to feed her for every one hour. She sleeps with me or my sister, follows me around the house and she is my companion. You are my happiness till then since you will never hurt me mentally.

I LOVE YOU, I really do :)

Birthday Girl, Tyra :)

Buka puasa at mamak :p

Well, not really puasa yet masa ni but y'know ganti puasa at the very last minute. I had a very greaaaat time. They are my souls :) I love you both, Zu and Tyra.

Malaysia Vs Chelsea

Yes, I went to Bukit Jalil for the match. Soooo bloody crowded and I dont think I will ever go to any football match anymore. But at least I got the chance to see Drogba and Fernando Torres. Aaaand of course so many handsome boys, haha k just kidding. Well, it annoyed me when people take photos of you without yr knowledge -.-

Not forgotten, thanks Wan Ahmad Badiuzzaman for the suprise visits -.- I thought you were just playing around but when I opened the door of my house, walaaaah.

Birthday girl, Baizuria :)

We rock the surprise party for Baie. Glad to know that yre surprised Baie. Me and Zu thought you already got the hint but you didnt. Good job Zu (Y)

To someone who used to be very close to me,

You know who you are. It seriously sadden me you dont talk to me anymore. I know its my fault but I thought you said as if its not a big deal. But then why arent you talking to me? Why? I just dont get it, I really dont. I've tried talking to you again for three times but you didnt respond the way it used to be. I thought it'll get better in time but I was wrong, it'll never be okay again right? There's no more me going to yr house, sleepover at yr house, watching movies together, going for tuition together, talking about crap things, celebrating birthday and so on. They're just too many memories to be remembered, too many of them. Reading all yr texts, comments and posts, our photos hmm really disappoint me. To be truth, I really miss you. But then, Im hurt too and its worse than breaking up with a bf at first. Maybe Wan was right, maybe there's another reason yre mad at me. Whatever it is, Im truly sorry.

Im recovering and obviously you too. You said its better ths way, you said you prefer the way you are right now. So all this while......nvm :( To the other friends, Im sorry it wouldnt be the same again. Thanks Tika, Zu, Tyra and Qilah for being there for me though smtimes I feel as if Im interrupting the friendships of all of you. But I really really appreciate you guys, thank you again.

I know I could never be a good friend, I shoudnt be close with anyone so no one will get hurt.

Husky Voice :'(

2011-06-26T05:30:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

End of Sport's Day

Pring house didnt make it. Our athletes had done their best but there were bunch of people from other houses that are way too fast.

GUESS WHAT?

My arts section won the best decoration for the tent. This is so unbelievable! Yes I wanted to win but by looking at other houses especially McNeil, I know my chances were very low.

Sekarang, tiba masanya untuk hiasan khemah. Johan hiasan khemah adalah rumah...........

PRING!

In my head, was that Pring or Playne? Pring, Playne, Pring, Playne. They sounded almost the same. But when Anis hugged me really tight, I know it was Pring. Yi Wen, captain of yellow house was searching for me. I held up my head and grabbed the trophy with proud :) Special thanks to See Bee Qun and members. And of course Anis, Siti, Diyanah, Nazurah and Aqilah.

Congratulation to Dilla, captain of Pring house cheerleaders team for the victory. Im so proud of you. To Nina, I think yrs was still amazing though you didnt win.

Congratulation to Playne House

Yuga, captain of the mighty mighty red who is my classmate must be very very proud. Their athletes were superb. Cheerleaders, third place.

Second place, McNeil.

Bravo Nareen, captain of blue house who is also the school captain. McNeil was being average in everythg.

Pope house has stolen our discipline cup.

Hahaha. Sorry Leavania, captain of green house. They have the best athletes, couldnt deny that.

Now that I have husky voice bcause of screaming and cheering too much. Sorry Aqilah, kesian eardrums kau. My face and hands have different tone of colour now, be jealous -.-

Yes, I mean YOU

2011-06-23T08:59:00.000-07:00

ALL I WANT IS YOU, TO TELL US THE TRUTH

TALKING TO YOU DOESNT MEAN THAT IM OVER IT

NO, IT IS NOT OVER YET UNTIL YOU OPEN YR MOUTH

AND TELL US THE FREAKING TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED

New Header (Y)

2011-06-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Must study, MUST!

> 5 Months?

I know know, I will study. I promise I will start the latest on July. Since this month I'll be busy with my Sports Day. I dont know why it is on June, end of June. Shissshh, I have not much spirit for that. I hope my art section will win the best decoration for the tent, seriously I have nothg to do during the meeting since everythg is done, but teachers keep asking me why are they doing nothing? What am I suppose to answer? Darn, Im not a good leader.

Btw, I have a hot hot story to tell. You know what? I have the best, coolest, most awesome, most lovely, most considerate and most understanding friend. She used my name to cover her up without telling me the truth. Well, she did say sorry but for the same damn reason which is a lie. You should just tell the truth, we may help you. Worst, to lie and to back stab yr own best friends. Luckily Im not one of yrs, bcause I will kill you if I were. Lastly, I love you lah kawan.

Result? Dayyum

2011-06-17T10:40:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Aww...yre so sweet Rachel.

The first thing I saw on my table as soon as I arrived school after two weeks of holiday. Yessshh, my result is already out. Dayyuum, mom will be totally dissapointed with me. Im so sorry, I know I should have study constantly not at the very last minute.

DURING THE HOLIDAY...

The first week of holiday was plain boring. I didnt go anywhere, I cant hardly remember what I did. The last thing I know, it was already the second week. Greeeaaaat. The second week was filled with some activities. But most of the time, I lepak with Nina and sleepover at hers.

I planned to study. But I failed to fulfill it -.-

Not at all, SPM Syera.

Terpsichore

I know most people will try to pronounce it, yet still not really sure about it. Hahaha, tah bahasa apa tah. I didnt wanna go, like seriously. But Faii forced me to go though its kinda late. How I wish I could say no, Im sorry but the show was not that interesting. I should have wasted my dad's money with some other things. Yi Xin, sorry I was late that I only watched the last part of yr gimrama dance.

Sunway Pyramid

I dont know why, but I really really wanted to go for ice skating during the holiday. At laaaast Nina managed to get the permission from her mother. Thank you Pn. Azizah :) Anis came along and of course my sister, Faii. Adlia should be with us, but she had some stuffs which turned out to be cancelled -.- So far, Sunway Pyramid is the furthest I've drove to with a manual car. I shall never buy a manual car, ever.

Lepak-ing with Jannah

My usual routine during the holiday since that is the only time Jannah will be around. Actually I was so boring at that time, while I was chatting with people out of sudden my phone rang and 'Ashmaliena' appeared on the screen.

Ash ; Syera, free tak?

Syera ; Yeap. Kenapa? *buat buat taktau :P

Ash ; Jom pergi SM!

Syera ; Right on time, pukul 2-3 camtu aku sampai.

Ash ; Hamboi, mentang mentang dah ada lesen, senang jea nak sampai sini kan. Before ni, kau mesti cakap 'tengoklah dulu kalau abang aku boleh hantar ke tak'.

Okay, hahahaha. Then I invited Jannah lepak with us together, so I picked her at home and straight to Selayang Mall. Thanks for the letter Jannah :)

Kem Bina Insan 2011

2011-05-30T09:01:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Right after school, we had to go to a camp at school. Yes, I didnt wanna go at first but after being persuaded by some of my friends like Zu, Aqilah and Adlia, I agreed to go. There were not many activities but lots of motivational talks. I just love this camp, since it really made me feel different about Islam. About my appearance, how to perform solat correctly and many other things. Thank you Motivasi Sentuhan Qalbu (MSQ). You've changed me, not much but maybe a little to a better person, insya-Allah.

Siratan manusia paling panjang

Well, yes our group won for everything. Bangga kejap* Group kami dapat paling panjang dan paling sikit putus, 5 sahaja. Panjang kitorang macam sepanjang padang sekolah. More than 100m for sure. Most people ingat kitorang lah paling banyak putus sebab kitorang panjang sangat but then, we still won. Probably bcause kitorang dah check over and over again. Alhamdulillah (:

K, senonoh betul gambar nii. Kegembiraan atas kemenangan :)

Di malam hari, selepas solat bjemaah. Dah macam budak kolej plk -.-

My team members, group 2 :)

Me, Diyana Syaza and Thahira werent in the picture.

Surprise Birthday Party for Nina

2011-05-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

This was an idea from Rachel and Iman

But I tried to make it real though they thought we couldnt do it since it was during our exam time. Lots of obstacles since Nina is always with me.

Nina ; Korang nak pergi mana?

Syera ; Kau turun lah dulu, aku ada hal jap.

Nina ; Kau nak pergi toilet ke? Jom ah aku ikut.

Syera ; Tak, kau turun jea dulu jumpa Faii

But she still, degil nak jgk ikut. So she waited for us though we already asked Faii to distract her. We had to crawl from one place to another place. We even had to go through sekolah rendah, and I tried my hardest to hide myself when I was trying to reach my car and picked them up at sekolah rendah. We off to Selayang Mall then to Nina's house to decorate it.

Cam-whoring while waiting for Nina and Faii

Mission accomplished! (Y)

She was actually surprised, fuuuh. Iman was so worried that her brother or father will tell Nina smthg but I believed in you, Uzair and waalaaah. They didnt, I know I can always count on you brader. And Nina had no idea or even a clue about ths. Seriously Nina? If only you had combine all the puzzles, yes you already can guess it.

Iman? Kamisah? Seriouslaay? Hahaha :D

Lepak-ing at Rachel's house

Yeah, after the party. It was time to go back, and I was the one who had to send them home. Everyone of them except for Naz and Kamisah. First stop was Iman, and then Rachel but just for few minutes. Lastly Zuriaaaaaaaaaaaa. Fuuuh, off to tuition.

Live your Life

2011-05-24T06:22:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Tak jawab dosa kalau jawab, sayaaaaang -Maria Elena

Fun thgs happened throughout the past two months,

Forum Remaja

Pengawas berwibawa, lol

Zu, Faz and me

This was due to the Teens Forum competition at Sekolah Menengah Agama Kuala Lumpur (SMAKL) Take note, Im not a prefect :)

One Utama

Kamisah and me :D

The retards, Faii and Narisa

We always go to OU or IKEA since I have my driving license. What to do? Its easier to go anywhere at anytime. Dad pls buy me a car instead of borrowing Abang's one. Thanks, heeee.

Metropolitan :)

Narisa, Faz, me, Fai and Zu

Me, Zu, Faz and Nina

This was an awesome day. I just love going there with them. Really really gonna miss this moment though driving to that place scared me.

MCKL 2011

On our way to the destination

Tyra, Iman, Tika, me and Zuria

Seriously and honestly,

I think none of us can enter The Amazing Race since we kept on arguing about the way and the answers. We couldnt compromise since we were very very tired and exhausted.

Mid-Year Examination

2011-05-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

TWO MONTHS?

I know it has been ~~awhile~~ a long time since my last post. Well, Im having my mid-year exams. But it will end tomorrow, and the school holiday is just around the corner. I'll be updating more during the school holiday........maybe. HAHA

Just a quick post, gotta study for my Tasawwur Islam.

I dont want it to be like my Biology, hancur -.-

Toodle :3

Oh yeah, I have a new cat. Her name is Tuchy but.......nvm, I'll update more later on.

Finally...

2011-03-31T00:35:00.000-07:00

Yes, finally...

I GOT MY LICENSE.

No more going to Taman Samudera and drive like I-have-no-other work. No more calling Abang Ipin to pick me up though a part of me gonna miss that. Million thanks to Abang Thom for handling everythg, Abang Ipin who picked me up like every weekends and Abang Ngah who made me giggled all the way. The best driving teachers ever, gonna remember you guys as long as Im driving (: They even gave me the chance to drive around before I even got my license. Pernah bawak dr Bt. Caves sampai rumah pun and the next day pergi Warta. They believed in me, Iknowright. Dad, thanks for accompanied me on that day. Not forgotten, R.N. Ashikin, the JPJ who at last gave me 18 out of 20. Alhamdulillah.

Eh, dah nak bulan April. Pejam celik pejam celik, bulan Disember. Ha hambik kau, menggigil. K tak tak, gotta start sacrificing my time for facebook and blog to study. No worries, after SPM I aint got anythg to do....only if I didnt get the PLKN. And I'll be busy with my brother's wedding and moving to Sepang -.- Afiq will be getting married soon, ths December. The engagement will be held towards the end of April if Im not mistaken.

Tons of homewrok waiting for me.

Boiii ♥

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia 2011

2011-03-23T09:05:00.000-07:00

Trying to study...

After few minutes...

And walaaaah...

Warning ; Dont try this at home ;P

Well yeah, today was a big day for our 2010 SPM candidates. Indeed, their results. Whoa, somehow I got an adrenaline rush. Its gonna be my turn next year, so what else you should do? GO STUDY!

Im gonna repeat my driving test this 29, urggh pls pray for me. I know it was my fault last time, Im so sorry for disappointing you, dad. I'll try my best this time. Will not be too near with any cars, and beware of the other side instead of only mine. Aaaaand to slow down, since my family told me I could be a good racer --'

MCKL 2011

Yay, will be held on this Saturday. Cant wait for thaaaaaat! Its like..err treasure hunt, y'know. We'll be given free excess on any monorail, KTM or LRT. Nina, Zu, Tyra, Iman, Tika and I are going to rock'em.

An agreement

2011-03-22T01:04:00.001-07:00

Assalamualaikum

If the agreement is broken, one has to treat the rest at Subway.

*Yes, I know Subway jea pun but if ramai ramai boleh bankrWith who? lol

Me and Atika have agreed with an agreement. Then, more people have joined us after I posted it on facebook. They are Zuria, Aqilah, Jannah and Liyana. Well, here is our agreement ;

-No couple until SPM is officially over.upt jgk.

So, the answer for the above question will be no one.

News spread very fast you know? Haih, Im very very upset and dissapointed with one girl. She is so embarrassing. If yre thinking of doing bad thgs, pls remember you'll drag your family name, your school image and your religion altogether. Shame on you! Aku nengok gamba gamba tu, panass jea tau. Tampo kang --'

K gotta go tuition.

Byeeee ♥

Epic failure --'

2011-03-16T21:32:00.001-07:00

Assalamualaikum

YESSS!

I managed to fulfill my target. K, 6A's in my hand. Hip hip hooraaay! The next exam, must be at least 7A's. Step by Wicked Step, lol.

NOOO!

I failed my driving test. Curse you Arizawa**! But Alhamdulillah, I still passed my part 2 which is daki bukit, parking and tiga penjuru. Part 3, on the road gotta repeat that again. Aku tak blame fully dekat JPJ tu, tapi aku silap sikit jea pun. Kau pun memandai suh aku potong apahal, dah jalan kecik? Kau fikir aku takde kerja lain nak buat? Aku sekolah tau tak? Ni aku kena pegi sekolah memandu, belaja on the road over and over again. Kena ponteng sekolah lagi, sbb test 29 nii ==. Well, my mom said 'its okay, maybe failing will make you the best driver in the house' while dad said 'Thts your fate, try again'. Well, my brothers are real jerk. Sisters are supportive as usual, no doubt.

UJIAN

2011-03-08T05:43:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Ujian Intervensi 1, haih. At laaaaast, dah habis pun. Gembira tu tak sangat lah kalau tengok result yang semua bagai telur di hujung tanduk, eh betul ke peribahasa ni? Tak kesah lah, tapi semua A nak mati jea except for BI and Maths. Target aku ialah 6A, sekarang baru 4. Well, ada 4 more papers to go. 2 lagi tu toksah tanya lah, kira halal je lah -.- Teruk sebenarnya. Iye, aku amik 10 subjek. Lupa nak kasi tau, ke dah bagitau? Eden dah drop akaun, complicated. Kalau 10, mana lagi satu subjek? Tasawwur Islam lah. Somehow, tht subject makes me understand Islam better. 2 in 1, perfecto!

Fyi, Im wearing contact lens now. Trend terkini lah katakan.

Ha, ini lagi satu berita baik.

Ujian ~~Intervensi~~ Memandu will be on this Tuesday, 15.03.11. Start belaja memandu since last last week, fuuh best memang best pandu kereta ni tapi manual car kena fokus. Masa belajar jalan raya lah paling nervous. Abang Ngah, Abang Thom or Abang Ipin pun tak dapat nak relaks kan Syera. Abang Ngah ok lah sebab dia suka bgurau. Abang Thom, garang sikit. K, Abang Ipin tau aku takut dengan Abang Thom sbb dia yg selalu amik aku, sempatlah berborak sikit. Diam diam jela abang oii. Well, bole nampak dengan jelas aku lah paling pendiam antara semua pelajar lain. Tah, macam ada emas jea dalam mulut. Or maybe sbb aku tak biasa dgn laki, maybeeee. This weekend will be my last lessons, wish me all the best peeps. Thankss (:

Fatima's Best Moment :O

2011-03-08T05:19:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Babak 2,

Chinese New Year Holiday.

Mid Valley

Fatima and Baie

Ehem ehem :D

Cucite cucite. Nak cite apa lagi, tengok gamba dah menjelaskan segalanya.

Cuba teka mana Syera punya?

Ala ala rainbow tu lah for sure, macam tak kenal Syera. Tapi kan, that ice cream somehow made me dizzy and hurt my throat. Da** you ice cream. Kitorang tengok The Green Hornet 3D, best whoa. K, I know its kinda lame by this time.

Hello agaaaain (:

2011-03-08T04:51:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Fuyooh, lamanya tak update. Sebulan plus plus dah ni, hebat tak? K, memang hebaat takyah banyak cakap. Well, nak kata busy tu takdo lah sangat tapi sikit tu adalah. Haih, baru jea lopas Ujian Intervensi 1. Ponat jgk sampai bengkak bengkak mata den. Tak tidur untuk study? Syera? Hahahaha.

Babak 1,

Me and Fai's Birthday celebration.

Deli France

K, mom and dad --'

Indeed, we had beef lasagna. Yum yum! Then, they even bought us Secret Recipe cake. Thanks a lot Ridhwan and Safiah. We had a great time, really wonderful (: Not to forget, they bought me White Toblerone. Yay!

Taman belakang rumah, lol. The Secret Garden.

Best Birthday Ever ♥

2011-01-27T09:09:00.000-08:00

Awwww ♥

Specially thanks to Nina, Miloh, Iman, Rachel, Zuria and Fazreena. I really really love you guys. Yess, this was the best birthday ever. Secret Recipe was the venue, not gonna forget this memorable moment. Thanks for all the gifts, banner, pictures, memories and everything. Im so sorry tht this thg tiring you guys, I know its quite late the time we got bck. Most of all, THANK YOU.

Mom and Dad

Mom, thanks for the money since you have no idea to buy me anythg. I know you dont really like me wasting any stuff. Dad, thanks for the bedsheet. Somehow, I guess you dont think tht I've grown up since you bought me bright pink Barbie bedsheet. Yess, Im still your lil girl LOL. And the night before my birthday, you bought me another present which is the purse from Lovely Lace. I know you're upset I dont use it yet, I just bought one dad. I will use it once I get bored with the Vincci. And soon, thanks for the driving license and a car in the future. Yay!

Ranina

Awesome ke? Eeeii, tak pun. K k awesome la sbb bought me this lovely watch. One of my wishlists, I really appreciate your efforts to buy this watch and decorate the banner. Sorry I couldnt receive your mms with happy birthday letters in the picture. Well, I know you're happy with your new handphone. Teehee, love you Nina....Awesome.

Iman Aqilah

This pretty girl has been giving me presents since last year. This year, she bought me a journal book. She knows how much I love a book to be written on it. Never say sorry if I didnt like it, of course I loike it to the max and it is so beautiful. Though tht kiss is not real, well I might have to keep it to remind you of me once you become popular. Haha. Thnks for paying almost half of the bill at secret recipe. Love yaaa Princess Iman (:

Miloh

I just love the brownies from Famous Amos, so deliciouss. Teddy bear, you know how much I like it. Not to forget, thanks for belanja me the Strawberry Yogurt Milkshake and Oreo Cheese Cake at Secret Recipe. Im quite surprised tht you can join us since its so hard to get the permission. My best partner ever though we just sit together for only one month. I just love you for being very very caring and helpful. I wish I'd sit with you since Form 1, thing would be so different. I love you bff (:

Rachel

Omg, you bought me my fav chocolate ever. I really really appreciate you fulfilled my wishlist. ThankS for the kiddy meal at Secret Recipe. I love the french fries of letters. Hihi :D I will always love you. Thanks for the early post in the blog. Yes, indeed everythg is so true. We always talk about our deepest thoughts together, our love life. Hope you and him could be together, live happily ever after. Just like the fairytale, once upon a time starts right now :D

Well anyone wants to buy me the white one? LOL

Thanks Abang

And her gf, Kak Nabilah for the socks. Im so touched tht you actually remember my birthdaay.

Abang ; Eh birthday hari ni kan?

Syera ; Iyola *Nak minta hadiah tapi taktau malu plk

Abang ; Jap, nak pegi amik.

Faii ; Eleeh, baru nak belila tu.

*****************************

Abang ; Nah!

Syera ; Aww, thanks :D

Faii ; Eh, memang dah beli eh? Ingatkan dah lupa.

Abang ; -.-

Fatima Zahrah

This girl is the one who has been giving me cards since I guess Form 2 if Im not mistaken. I just love you sister, pls dont ever forget me though we're not in the same class anymore. I miss hanging out with you. Hope we can go out someday, waiting for the day :D

Never Been Happier (:

2011-01-21T07:28:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Oh no, Im getting older soon.

Kaki Terseliuh

Gembira punya gembira mian buaian, of course la sbb aku buai plg tggi dah mcm bole pusing 360 degrees. Hambik kau, bole lawan? Tapi disebabkan tu, kaki aku terseliuh. Korg mesti garu kepala ala ala beruk mcm mana bole tseliuh. Korang tak tahu ke Syera ni tinggi? Taktau? Ni nak habaq ni *apa kaitan plk nii. Oh ye, buaian tu rendah sbnrnya so kena bengkokkan kaki kalau nak laju laju. Tup tup, kaki terlipat. Hebat tak hebat, smpai skrg pun bengkak. Smthg wrong tapi lantakla. Tetap seronok main buaian :D

Vietnam

Ayah ; Nak ikut mak pergi Vietnam?

Syera ; Nak nak! Mengangguk penuh harapan.

Ayah ; Tak sedar diri, SPM dulu.

Syera ; Cehh -.-'

Mak oh mak, asyik ke sana sini jea kan? Baru jea pergi hari tu, ni nak pergi lagi and bwk Faiz kali nii -.- Then pergi China plk. Takpe, bapa kata kalau murah rezeki lepas aku SPM dia nak bwk pegi tmpt lagi top. Takyah nak jealous sgtla. MUEHEHE :D

Jazghee

Budak ni gedik tapi dia prefer manja -.- Eeeii, suka perasan. Dia hengat dia tinggi sangat, tak kay? Bf I lagi tinggi tau, eh sape? Tak reti makan nasi apa? Makan roti jea, patutla kurus mcm lidi. Hihi :P

Dia yg suruh post pasal dia, gedik tak gedik?

Birthday

Yay! Dah nak tua -.-

Well, its not tht bad bak kata Jazghee remaja. At least aku dah bole hambik lesen kereta, korang bole? Tak bole, padan muka. And and dapat hadiah. Sape nak bagi kau Syera?

Wishlist :

- Toblerone

- Milky Bar

- Any hobo, sling bag dark purple

- Shirt and more shirts

- Jam tangan, tak kesahla murah mahal

- Cardigan, warna gelap

- Socks, wajib sbb pakai socks 24/7

- Kasut sandal or sneakers, size 5/6

- Teddy bear bole dipeluk (:

Haha, mengada nak semua nii -.-

P & C

2011-01-11T00:07:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

INDEED, I AM

Study, thts wht Im going back to the start. Every subject, I have to begin from the start. Im not gonna study so hard for my Intervention Test, so that I dont have to study over and over again. Im going to study slow and steady until it stucks in my mind. My aim is only for SPM and of course trial. Trial will be at the last moment, probbly by tht time, I already have everythg in my brain. Amin (:

Its only the second week, and Im already tired of all -.-

Well, I guess some people in my class are being very racist but not all of them. Yes you guys are intelligent, genius, smart and bla bla bla but tht doesnt mean you can be rude to others. Pls show some respects, and the rest will do the same. Do your duty, dont disturb my bussiness. Dont grumble, blame me and tell the whole world when I didnt do mine when you guys are being very 'helpful'. Im sorry for being racist, but trust me I wont if you treat me nicely. Im sorry, I dont mean it to all of you just to some of you. I know Im not tht good but I know how to say sorry and thank you. Pls dont look down on people, because you will fall someday. Do you think tht anyone will care? Obviously, no -.- Its karma people, KARMA.

I have two leadership courses to handle this week. Why thank you for 'helping' me to decorate the class and told everyone tht I didnt do my job. Do you need flyers to tell the whole universal? Perhaps an advertisement on television? -.- Im being nice, and you guys pijak kepala. How nice is that? Pfft. Suddenly I enjoyed handling the courses rather than being in the class. Im not gonna lie, but I like Add Maths classes. I can understand very well and answer the questions at only tht time, but when exam time tht'd be different thg -.-

Seriously, aku mmg tak suka orang mencarut semua ni. Apa korang dapat? Dosa dan doa tu reverse balik kat korang jea. Bodoh tu pun dah kira terukla, lebih daripada tu bikin telinga gua panas jea. And and takyahla nak cakap orang bajet bagaii, korang pun ada bajet jugak. Takyah nak judge orang sangat, people usually have their own reason(s) on deciding somethg.

'God is fair enough. There is always a reason(s) for anythg to happen. Instead of complaining, try to deal with it' -unknown

Sekolah, SPM :/

2011-01-07T18:48:00.001-08:00

AssalamualaikumSeronoknya masuk sekolah -.-

It has been a week school re-opened. I dont feel so excited as much as I did years before. SPM drives me crazy, seriously. Since I slept late almost for everyday during the holiday, now tht I have to adjust my time again. Isnin tu try tidur awal but tup tup around 1 jgk. Smpai Rabu mak pun tegurla 'Balik sekolah mcm balik dr medan perang jea' sbb asyik tidur petang dan kadang kadang smpai ke pagii. So, the next day I tried not to sleep in the evening and I did it! Therefore, tht night I managed to sleep around 10-11 and days after tht.

Takmo masuk Form 5 :(
Well, first day pun dah stress out pasal SPM. Fyi, batch PMR 2010 tidak berjaya memecahkan rekod baik batch kitorang. Bangga sikitla, kecewa lagi banyak sbb result jatuh merudum. Our batch ada 66 org straight As, skrg hanya 38. What? Almost half tuu, pfft. Nevermind, just work harder my lovely juniors. Well, I'll be going to tuition next week but no more Perfection. Just a group tuition, consist of only 4 to 5 persons.

Cikgu Form 5?
Taknak cakap banyak, taknak pisang berbuah dua kali. Last year has been a very miserable year for me because of tht. So far, I think the teachers are great. Bak kata cikgu BM, cikgu hebat sebab pelajar dia hebat kan kan? Kena buat hmwk and study dah nii, till we meet again (:

Jiran Baru?
Petang Jumaat tu, Faii and Narisa ajak pegi taman. Cam-whore and main punya main, tetiba nampakla laki hot jogging kat tepi. Tak penah plk aku nampak laki nii. So, dia la inspirasi kami utk jogging setiap petang. Haha, hebaat.

Kbyee ♥

2011, New Year

2011-01-01T01:14:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

OhMyGod, its 2011 already -.-

I dont like new year for many reasons. Korg tau tak, tahun baru bermakna dah nak masuk sekola. Lagi lagi 2011, aku nak SPM :( Noooo! Kejap lagi nak kena tukar info kat sebelah blog ni lagi. Then, aku pun makin tua dan tak lawa......haih. 2011 menandakan 'this is my last year of school'. Im gonna miss school so badly after tht. And and probably, aku akan jarang update blog. Sorry everyone, its gonna be a busy and tough year. pls doakan aku dapat lalui dgn tenang.

Azam, orang lain ada aku pun nak jgk (:

♥ Menjadi seorang hamba Allah yg mengamalkan 'amar makruf, nahi mungkar.

♥ Be a better person as a friend, sister, daughter and student.

♥ Full commitment towards my study.

♥ Read more storybooks.

Mak Uda's Crib ♥

2010-12-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Well, I went to Mak Uda's last Monday till someone got jealous and picked me home on Wednesday. I wanted to go earlier, like probably tht Sunday but I fell asleep in the evening -.- So yeah, early in Monday's morning we followed mom to office and took the train.

Hazim, Jazghee, Nana, Yaya, Faii, Hajar, Farzwan and me

THE MINES

On Tuesday, we went to The Mines. Maii taknak ikut :/ So, just the five of us and some other people. Sorry, Angah is not in the picture. Seriously, there's nothg much at The Mines. Except for tht boat thingy and shopping, well thts okay for the tourists la. Well, Farahin and Aida were there too.

JANNAH

Again, lepak with Jannah. Bcause I have issues with my family so I didnt want to be at home. I tried my hardest and pray so I could follow her and I managed to get it. Yay! I woke up early in the morning, cleaned the house and thenI got ready to go out. I followed her to two weddings, the first one was not tht far but the second one -.- I even slept in the car before we stopped by at Masjid Bt Arang for Zuhur. I had fun, for real. Time bagi makan monyet tu yang best, ayah Jannah pegang satu plastik keropok then buka tingkap nak bagi makan. Dia bagi satu jea, so kitorg semua gelabah ayam suruh bagi banyak banyak sbb takut monyet monyet tu serbu. So, ayah dia terus campak jea dgn plastik plastik sekali. Mak Jannah cakap 'Tau pun takut, orang bukala plastik besar besar and campak barula betul', kitorg terus gelak tak henti henti.

Genting Highlands Babyy

2010-12-19T10:19:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Well, Genting Highlands was so cold. The temperature is around 15 degree celcius and the rain, on and off. First of all, we rode the merry-go-round except tht this one is like a swing not with the horse. The queue was super long but it didnt take too much time since tht thing can fit quite lots of numbers.

Can you see the merry-go-round behind us?

Then, we lined up for the Space Shot. Oh my, this one we had to wait for about more than 40 mins since the queue was way too long. It was super duper awesome, we were pulled up which is quite high and then, we were pushed down like there was no force. Seriously fast since I was not on my seat when we were going down.

See tht, the space shot :D

After the Space Shot, our next ride was CorkScrew which is a roller coaster. Actually tht thg kena stop since it was raining, so queue yg sgt panjang pun jadi pendek sbb ramai org give up. But my sister said, bukannya ada benda lain buka pun -.- So, we waited with a few other people. Then, not even an hour passed by kitorg dah dapat naik. Well smtimes its worth to wait, bak kata mutiara 'yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran'. Baik lagi wait for smthg drpd give up pegi tempat lain and tmpat lain pun penuh -.- Tak ke pathetic sgt tu?

After tht, we lined up for the Fun Kart which is Go Kart la. Tht one is super cool, its like I was driving an automatic car. When times up, I was told to stop. The guy in front of me bang-ed the person in front of him and continously like a domino. I was so shocked and pushed the brake harder.

On the Flume Ride, wet -.-

This was our next ride, the Flume Ride which is on the water. Its like a roller coaster except tht this one is on the water and we were splashed with the water. Mmmg bestla basah and kesejukan -.- Then, kitorg ingat nak naik Flying coaster tapi tutup so we repeated the merry-go-round thingy.

Genting Highlands is AWESOME.
Kbye ♥

Picnic with Waterfall (:

2010-12-17T13:30:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

I went for a picnic, YAY! Of course la with my mom and dad. Here they are...

Not! This is my sister, Safiah and her bf, Ridhwan.

The night before we went there, we baked some or maybe lots of chocolate cakes. Then, we made drinks which is Bandung Soda. So, we departed from home around 11. And as soon as we arrived, we searched for the great spot. Then, kitorg pun ber-ss. Amik gmba sana sini, hoi tak hengat dunia. Since its Friday, Ridhwan had to stop for Solat Jumaat. We changed our spot nearer to the car. And jyeaah, after Solat Jumaat we went down to the waterfall. As I were taking the picture, suddenly Ridhwan says 'Apa benda basah dtg dr atas ni?'. And I looked up, OhMyGod its raing heavily. Run guys, ruuunn!

Its so fresh and cold, wee :D

Finally we found a shelter, fuhh. My sister changed her pants and slept. Well, I was so freaking cold and my sister had her Jacob around her *Ridhwan. Me? I only had my teddy bear, neaah a towel with teddy bear print on it. Shishh, we went bck around 4 to 5. Ridhwan taught Piah to drive but I felt like being in a bumper car. Piah, you have to be relax.

Ths all for today.
See you next time. Kbye ♥

Sleep, Eat, Online ♥

2010-12-16T06:08:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

I dont know wht to say....

So, yeah I went to mom's family day. Nothg much since I've grown up, it was incredibly fun to go tht kind of event when I was little since I can join lots of games. Now Im 16 and another 1 month and 10 days, I'll becoming 17. Oh my, 2011 will be my last year at high school. I dont know whether I should be excited or sad since I dont really like being in high school. But University, would it be the same? Or worse, better? But hope to find true friends, and boyfriend there. Hihi (:

SUNWAY PYRAMID

My fav destination of all the time, haha. Every holiday, mesti pergi kan? I just love ice skating tho Im not tht professional. Just doing it for fun ♥ As usual, going there with my sisters, Ridhwan and Zoriff.

SCHOOL STUFFS

Baju, done. Kain, done. Tudung, done. Shoes, done. Text books, done. Excercise books, nope. Bag, nope. Stationary, nope. Thts all I can think of rght now. Im so glad tht my dad gave me the chance to at last wear Converse shoes for school. He actually wanted to buy me a Nike shoes which I dont really like and much much more expensive. And finallly I bought a new purse, Vincci. Been using tht kiddy purse since Form 1.

SYERA

I love whenever people call me Syera and correctly. Its not Syira, its Syera. How laa, err kinda like this Shay-ra. And if people call me Syairah, I assume tht person is not close to me. I dont know why I take this thing seriously tho it doesnt matter bcause name is just to differenciate you with other person. Or maybe there is smthg within our name? Hmm..

Rumah Atok ♥

2010-12-12T15:28:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Yeaah, I ♥ hometown

Last weekends, kitorg semua balik kg sebab ada abg sedara kahwin. So, mcm biasala the united Rahmat's family akan berkumpul dan pasti semua akan datang kecuali ada hal yg tak dapat dielakkan. We called it Rumah Atok and we usually do lots of gathering there even hari raya. Tho Atok, Hj Rahmat and nenek have died quite long time ago, this house is still alive. Credits to Abg Yan and Kak Zaa for taking a good care of this house. Yeah, I love this kind of family bond. Tell me my hometown is pretty (:

From the side of rumah atok ♥

I ♥ a girl (:

2010-12-03T06:14:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Oh my Lord, I really really dont know wht to do.
Rght after the KLCC thingy, nothg really happened. Tuesday and Wednesday was like the dead dayss. I seriously had nothg to do on tht particular days. I slept, ate, and online. I guess thts all I did, shishh.

So, on Thursday I went to Jannah's. Probably on 9 am onwards I was in front of her house. I was sooo sleepy bcause I couldnt go to sleep tht night. So in the day light, I felt like dying...seriously. We didnt do anythg in the morning, we talked about how was her life back at JB.

Jannah and me :D

Jannah, si puteri lilin eh ye ke? Haha

Yay! I got a mail :DD
We actually exchanged mails. I hope you can face the reality my dear friend. Listen to me, though I cant always be with you, I still love you and never really forget you. Be grateful with wht you have bcause you might not know wht will happen. You shouldnt be jealous with anyone's life bcause you might not know wht has tht person gone through or going through.

Just before I left her house, oh my I look so small from far *Lakonan semata mata

NOOOOOOO! :(

2010-11-30T01:01:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Since this holiday is so boring, I planned to go for a camp. Nureen gave me a place to go, Im trying to make my dad gives me a green light (:

4, 5, 6 & 7 December 2010 is the camp date. No, no, nooooo! This 4 and 5 December is my cousin's wedding, we are going bck hometown. And this 7 December is my mom's office family day. This shouldnt happen, nooo! :(

I want more activitiess :(

2010-11-29T23:19:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Just so you know, Im so boring during this holiday. I dont know wht to do, I've done everythg I should except for study bcause I just couldnt do it tho I already tried more than once. Last Saturday, I went out to Selayang Mall with Nureen Hazirah. She brought her sister along so was I. My sister met with her friends, Thira and Amy. So, we lepak at McDonald for most of the time. As soon as Faii left us and Nureena went to buy oreo, there's one guy asked for my cup. Kau gila apa nak guna cup yg aku dah guna? Laki tu satu tuisyen dulu, pernah terpaksa duduk sebelah dia. Urggh, diorg annoying sbb they kept asking for the cup. As Nureena came back, aku pun cepat cepat blahh. Taktaula apa motif bebudak laki tu, sama ada untuk kacau atau nak kenakan jea -.-

KLCC with them ♥
Faii, Ranina and Kamisah

We were in the San Francisco Coffee

Nina came later than us, fyi we went there by taxi. So I'll never know how to get to KLCC by train -.- But taxi from KL Central wasnt tht expensive but taxi from KLCC terribly expensive. We met Nina at McDonald as we were having our breakfast. Then, we moved on to Kinokuniya which is a bookstore. I gotta start reading story books again. Dad always doesnt care if he had to give lots of money for books. You know wht? We did stop buy at the y'know the kids' ride. Every each one of them and took some pictures *the picts are with Kamisah. Its fun bcause we could still fit in the small car. You know wht thing Im talking about ride? The one you have to put coins and it will move about :DD

Till we meet again,
Lots of ♥ , Syera.

My lips :(

2010-11-25T08:18:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

'You will regret someday Syera, YOU WILL', Faii said.
'Im not gonna regret it when I look at yours', I replied.

See, Faii is jealous with my new haircut. She said I should keep it long but before tht she asked me to cut it short. Kaf lam ya nga jugak kau ni kan? But I kinda like my hair noww. I dont have to tie, comb or think of it too much. Im just so happy with it, but maybe I will regret but dont worry bcause it is not smthg permanent.

Oh noooo T_T

My lips started to flake again, big NO! The pharmacist confirmed tht my lips are allergic to some kind of food tht I have not discovered yet. It has recovered almost a week ago after 2 months of pain on the lips. They gave me a gel and I have to start using it again. Suddenly yesterday, it happened again. So yeah, I only have to remember wht I ate yesterday. I ate kebab ayam, kuey tiao, oreo, french fries and sausages. I rarely eat kebab ayam and kuey tiao, so thts not my problem. French fries, I eat all the time. But sausages? I've changed it idk how many months ago. And oreo? You gotta be kidding me? So, I think the sausages are my problem :(

Im gonna talk about friends again

If you think tht Im immatured about this, leave this one okay? Faii has one best friend, they go almost everywhere together. Pya, she has Ridhwan who would bring her wherever she wants to go. Me? Im pathetic bcause I have no one to hang around with, just the laptop, blog and facebook. And as the school start, it would be the bookss.
FOREVER ALONE SYERAAA!

Basketball ♥

2010-11-24T07:01:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Good shot, Syera (:

Okay, yesterday kitorg main basketball depan rumah. Kali ni, faii and narisa tak jatuh dah. Haha, ada ke patut ada satu hari tu diorang punyala beria nak main basketball. So mcm biasa diorg memekak dulu, buat hidup org sengsara. Then, diorg pun keluarla pergi main basketball. Dalam hati, fuhh tenang hidup aku. Tak smpai lima minit, lima minit korg tau? Ada bunyik org menangis ke gelak, aku pun kurg pasti. 'Aik? Baru jea klua, takkan dah balik diorg ni?' monolog dalam hatila. Rupanya diorg main lumba lari, dua dua pun jatuh. Luka, darah and semuala. Aku hanya mampu gelak dan sedikit simpatila. Hahaha lawaaak -.-

Yeah, Im good at shootingg :D

So yeah, next year I thought of playing netball again. Basketball? Im not really good at it. But I scared if I didnt make it, I mean dapat masuk team. Haihh, just wish me the best okay?

-________________-

This is wht happened when I tried to pull my sister up on my shoulder. Dia terlalu berat, and I slipped over the grass and walaaa. Cun kan? Mcm org berak dalam seluar pun ada. Tak guna ekau Faii! Dahla baru lepas mandi, ingtkan nak main shoot shoot bola jea. Sekali kena mandi lagi daaa.

Another day of school holiday

2010-11-23T02:59:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Hello peeps (: The school holiday has just started a week ago. Online and....thts all I do -.-
Greaaaaaat!

I have a wonderful and shocking newss. Guess wht? My class got the best class from the entire school. Whattaa? This is because we got the highest merit marks and quite low demerit marks. Cool rght? As they were announcing, third place goes to 4sc2, everyone cheered for them. Second place goes to....4s3. In my heart, there goes our prize bcause mid term we got second place. And first place........4sc4! Whaat? And then I cheered to the fullest. We got RM400, WOW! Form 1, 2,3 and 5 pls try again. And the last day of school, we got to know tht our class had the best attendance and we got ice cream. Yum yum.
Good job 4 Science 4!

Selamat tinggal rambut panjang.

I just cut my hair since it kept on falling. You could see tht my room was fulled with hair before, I felt so annoyed. Yeah,I really gotta cut it. Alang alang gunting, gunting pendek jea terus. So, I really cut it short, the shortest ever and I dont really regret it. I kinda like it since everyone said I look cute (: Awww!

Aaaarrghh! My hair, oh my I forgot tht I already cut it. Tht was my impression when I woke up this morning. I cut my hair almost the same to the above picture, cool kan? Except tht my hair is still black laa. Im not gonna dye it, so not original and I cant perform solat or worse if I died tht time, camne nak mandikan? Tak lalu air kat kepala naa -.-

I have nothg to do!
I want to go out, but with who? And for tht, I need money and bla bla bla. But staying at home, urghh its killing me. I eat, I sleep, I bath, I cook, I clean the house, I....dont know wht else. Haihh, I wish I had a friend from my neighbourhood just like faii and narisa. Anyone pls move here!

More more event (:

2010-11-21T07:37:00.001-08:00

We were at Mc Donald, Mid Valley.

Faii, Narisa and Simran were with us too. There's two other guys who are Vinoth and Ahmad Zoriff. I cant remember the date for sure but it was after my bandung trip. Im so sorry for Nina who didnt manage to get her parent's permission to go there. There's always a next time, Insya-Allah.

The next event was my class partyy. To those who are reading this blog especially my own classmates, I prefer my last year class partyy. This year was kinda lame and dull, sorry people. But beofre tht class party even happen, we already did a party at Nina's. Just a small group, Tyra, Nina, Zu, Simran, Rachel(for few minutes) and also Jannah. We were actually there to help Nina with the cupcakess. Ended up me and Zuria had sleepover there, *awww!

Tadaaa, some of the cupcakes we managed to do. The cupcakes were nice except tht the icing is too sweet but still nice. I loikee. To Nina, thnks for everythg there. I felt very comfortable staying at your house.

Before the class party start, we did arm wrestling. Haha, penuh smgt kan Zu lawan ngn aku?

From left, Rachel, Tika, Nina, Tyra, me and Zu. Nina always get to menyebuk in the photo -.- You are everywhere Nina.

From left, Zu, Nina, Rachel and Milo with the balloon. We were to bored at tht time, so we decided to go to the top floor where evrythg was so peace and quiet.

From left, Nina, Zu, Kairvenee, Shangita, Rachel, Milo, Dashiniyaa, Priya and Tyra. Before the class party ended, we took some photoss.

From left, Aqilah, Kit Mun,Yi Wen,Wei Yan, Tyra and Tika

One of my fav pict, thnks Nina tho I didnt notice when you captured this. Work behind the scene la kan?

I MISS YOUU :(

2010-11-21T05:36:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Let see my last post was on.....................15th October 2010. Wow, tht is more than a month ago! Haha, I wasnt tht busy but I was just too lazy. A lot of things had happened so gonna make every event very short babeyh. No worries, Im still alive *sape kesah?

Just right after exam, I went to Bandung for four days. Yeah, I enjoyed being there and wish I could stay (: The citizens there are really nice, very well-mannered and...just go there and you'll know. Im not trying to compare but I guess Malaysia should follow their good behavior. For example, they do not need too much of traffic light bcause somehow they will tolerate with each other. Just so you know, the weather was terrific. Cold but not too cold. I dont sweat tho I didnt wear deodorant. Oops! I shopped lots of things, more than 10 things for sure. Look at some of the photos beloww ;

This was where we ate our dinner as soon as we reached bandung. Fyi, makanan kat kedai ni mmg 5 bintangla or A plus plus la. Fuh, makan mmg smpai jilat jari *over plk.

Ini ketika aku berada di Gunung Tangkuban Parahu. Mengikut penduduk di sana, nama itu sebenarnya mmbawa mksud perahu terbalik. Nama diberikan atas dasar rupa bentuk gunung yg seakan akan perahu terbalik. Kat sana sejuk dan sangat indah pemandangannya. Ada suatu masa dahulu, kalau tak silap 1996 masa tu bole turun ke bawah, skrg dah tak bole :(Kt sana, ada org yg durjana amik video aku&kak pya -.- Ciss!

Inila tempat kami semua tinggal, Orange Home. Ada kolam ikan yg sgt dalam, *WOW! For me, tmpat ni bestla but takla mewah mana. Just moderate jea.

A few days later was Maisarah's 12th birthday, she is my cute lil's cousin. Dont be sad with your UPSR result, there's always a next time. Try again and you know how much I love you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARR!

Sharing blog? :O

2010-10-15T13:02:00.000-07:00

Okay. I have another account for blog.
BUT
this account is shared by plenty of people.
WHAT ?!
Currently known as FullofSHIT aka FOS.
url, www.penuhdengantahi.blogspot.com
One of the mastermind and the only one i know, Aqeel Iqbal

Jeng jeng jeng, my water bottle.

Okay, I really drink a lot. I started to drink a lot of water since someone told me tht its good for you health and you will not get dehydrated. Yeah, thts true and many ppl will agree on tht. But I do think tht is the reason why I am skinny. Bcause it fasten my digestion and metabolism, am I rght? Thts why, everytime I eat I will straight away go to the toilet. I wanna gain some weight, I really really dig it! As you can see, tht water bottle is freaking big which can be filled with 2 litre of water. Surprisingly I bring tht bottle to school, never miss it even for one day. Mesti habis punya! Usually i drink 2 or 3 bottle per day, yes i do! I am very healthy yet so skinny -.-

Friends ♥

2010-10-13T03:17:00.001-07:00

I DONT USE BAD WORDS TO FIT IN OR TO LOOK COOL
because it aint cool, not at all

Tadaaa, this is ranina and rachel

Actually in this post, I am going to talk about rachel
To nina , dont get me wrongly. Of course I ♥ you too
Did I ever hurt you Rachel ? If I ever did, pls forgive me. Will you ?
Hmm, she loves to merajuk but its kinda cute when she pulls her face off
Dia pandai cakap bahasa melayu even though agak baku, y'know ♥
I dont like when she is serious bcause she easily gets hurt by only words
I love to hang around with her, milo, nina and simran
I am so touched tht she approved me as her sister in fb
Because usually, she will only approve her own biological sister
She is nice and sweeeeeet , I loikee !
Friends are very important to her , and I can see it very clearly
Thanks for making my life so much happier (:
I ♥ you, Rachel

I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you ♥ I ♥ you

This is a sample picture of my new camera ♥
I know, the picture is pretty not me rght ?

By the way, my exam will stop today and for another few days. I might have some times to do my revision, the papers tht I've gone through were not tht good. I dont know wht will happen to my result, will it be as bad the last one ? *Sighs. My maths 1, I guess it will be fine. Akaun ? Hahaha , I could only laugh bcause its too 'easy'. Belum paper 2, GILAA ! Okay , Sejarah ? You wouldnt want me to talk about tht, bcause I could even swallow the paper. My right hand was so in pain for answering the essay part -.- Chemistry was, err i dont know. Im glad tht the paper was not only about the last three or four chapters bcause y'know tht I like to concentrate on the first five chapters. So, the essay part was okay since I've read the book. But the structure question, I think number 1, 3 and 5 were quite okay. 2 and 4 ? I was quite blank on tht two questions. So 6 days without exam could be a short-term relief. Fuhhh.

New Flash ♥

2010-10-10T21:35:00.000-07:00

I'VE BOUGHT A NEW CAMERA ;D

This is canon SX130 IS
*The picture might be slightly different

One day of school holiday (Y) !

Hari ini aku ikut ibu pergi office dia. Kalau jalan jalan, ajak jea mesti dia la yg first siap. Ibu ibu, haih. Degan kesempatan itu , aku pun ajakla dia pegi beli kamera. Alaa , kedai tu bawah office ibu jea kat Maju Junction nii. Survey punya survey, akhirnya aku memilih Canon SX130 IS. Gamba dia , fuyyoohh . Lawa kot, harga takla mahal mana pun, tak semahal DSLR yg aku idam idamkan tu. Kamera tu maybe lepas aku abis SPM, pasti aku akan grab jgk. Terpadamla salah satu wishlist aku, fuuh. Memandangkan abg aku yg afiq tu dah janji nak belikan laptop setelah aku abis SPM (tapi result kena gempakla) takyahla aku fikir pasal laptop dah. So, duit yg bapak bagi bolela beli DSLR tuu and pegi jalan jalan luar negara. Haihh Syera, awal kau dah berangan ? Hahaha

Bye Daddy.

Ahad lepas, bapak sudah pun berangkat ke Mekkah untuk buat haji. Dengan sape tu, biarla rahsia. Sebab tak pelik ke ibuku masih di sampingku pd hari ini? Takpela. Walaubagaimana pun, aku doakan dia selamat sampai dan selamat pulang serta mendapat petunjuk drpd Allah SWT. Harap harap dia doakan aku dapat straight A untuk SPM. Muahaha. Bilala aku plk nak pergi, teringin sangat nii nak pegi tanah suci tuu. Tengok si Anis tu, dia pun pegi pd hari ini iaitu 11/10 ;( Dia takyah amik exam final nii -.- Saba jela.

Saturday.

Ibu kata, kemas rumah Syera kalau tak jangan ikut pegi Ikea -__________- Meatball punya pasal, aku pun punyala bersemangat kemas rumah. Tiba tiba, si Ridhwan call and nak ckp ngn mak. Rupanya dia nak ajak pegi open house ruma dia, eh Apek raya dah abisla. Cousin dia pun ada bgtau, tapi takkan nak dtg kalau si Pe'ah takde kan ? Tapi akhirnya ibu decided untuk pgi jgk sbb si Pe'ah tu ada exam penting hari ni. Awkward jgkla pegi sana sbb takde orang yg aku kenal, dalam hati cepatla balik mak oii. Nampakla satu family Ridhwan, semua comel. Kesian Ridhwan kena layan aku dan ibu aku tu, sape suh kau ajak? Hahaha. Padan muka kena buli, depan mak mentua pandai jadi baik. Bagus bagus, belakang sllu buli orang kan? Si Pe'ah pun sama, tsk tsk. Hari ni, takde post dengan gamba lawa lawa sgt sbb kat office ibu.

Braces vs Motorcycle.

Oh dad, of course la saya pilih braces. Saya taknak accident lagi, TAK SANGGUP. Tunggu jela tahun depan, belikan kereta terus bapak, heee ;D Tapi skrg ni, mmg saya pilih braces but if Braces vs Kereta mmg kompem kompem aku pilih kereta, braces tu guna jela duit sndiri.Tapi banyak dental appointment, tahun depan kan saya nak SPM? Bagaimana? Haish. Tapi saya nak jgk, nak jgk jgk! ;D

Stay or Leave

2010-10-08T08:03:00.000-07:00

See , nothing will remain the same for so long

Im in the middle of no where , huh ?

Hari ini saya bercita cita untuk berblogging dalam Bahasa Melayu
Tapi bukanla fully Melayu sebab saya memang suka rojak ,
Even saya pernah baca majalah e@siswa masa tah tingkatan berapa
Ada orang kata , if kita berbloging tak bole rojak rojak bahasa
WHO CARE ?

EXAM WEEK(S) !

Saya menggagahkan diri utk meng-update blog hari ini
Sebenarnya before ni dah terpikir nak update , tapi banyak bebenarla obsticles. Well orang macam saya nii sllu busy , eh ye ke ? Hahaha
Setakat nii , baru 4 paper berlalu dan quite tough jgkla
Biology 2, memilukanla sebab aku punyala fokus on the first five chapter
Keluar banyak chapter six and seven ==' Nasib bolela jgk jawab
Physics 2 , mainly entahla bole jawab kot tapi ramai orang kata susah
Bagi aku , aku prefer Physics rather than Biology yang sangatla pfft tuu
BM 1 dan English 1 , saat genting sebab baru baik demam dan migrain
Soalan yang keluar tu , mostly aku dah agak akan keluar
Tapi tahap malas yang sangat melampau melebihi segalanya
Saya sllu demam once saya tak ikut perintah Allah
Contohnya macam tertinggal solat or anythg yang sewaktu dengannya
Betapa sayangnya Allah padaku , Awwh ♥ Cewaahh

BIG AND HARD ♥

You know what ?
I have the same routine every single day at school
For me , susunan bangunan sekola tu tersangatla strategik
Kitorang ada dua pintu masuk , satu pintu masuk untuk pelajar
Satu lagi untuk para guru dan ibu bapa serta pelawat berserta tmpt parking
Kitorang punya entrance , masuk masuk jea ada walkway berbumbung
Then terus ada kantin , so every morning kena lalu kantin dulu
Smtimes bila aku datang awl sebab bsemangat sangat nak pegi sekola ,
Aku kenala tunggu smpai 6.50 baru bole naik ke kelas
Bangunan sekola tu ada dua empat segi , satu besar yang adanya Quadrangle
Lagi satu plk kecik jea , tengah tengah tu hanya ada kolam ikan

Cakap pasal toilet plk , kitorg ada dua toilet yg sgtla besar
Bayangkanla setiap satu kelas ada jamban sndiri , WOW !
Aku jrg masuk kelas sendiri sbb flush tu tak dibetulkan setelah bbulan lamanya
And ada banyak lagi extra kot tapi kitorg kena cuci sndiri even ada cleaner
Tingkat 1 untuk junior , tingkat 2 untuk senior
Tapi kan , skrg diorg tengah buat lagi satu toilet
Aku pun intai intaila jgk , dlm tu warna hitam . Apakah ?
Entahla , nanti akan adalah pengumuman pasal toilet tu

Life is not tht easy , you need someone to hold on
Me ? I cant seem to find tht someone yet
But Im happy to have friends even they are not my best friends
Being alone is so much harder , but its the only way i could get nearer to God and books
I prefer no to expect anyhtg from anyone bcause somehow tht will only break my heart

biology in stead of chemistry ?

2010-09-17T15:30:00.000-07:00

HOMEWORK

student ; teacher , may i ask you a question ?
teacher ; sure ,wht is it ?
student ; would you be mad at smthg tht i didnt do ?
teacher ; heh ? of course not dear , why should i be mad at thgs tht you didnt do ?
student ; greeaaaaattt ! bcause i didnt do my homework .
teacher ; -_______________-

okay , korang msti tau kenapa kan ?
sebab saya tak siap homework lagilaaaa .
exam plk lagi dua minggu , buku pun tak sentuh .
heshhh -.-apa nak jadi ni syera ? tsk tsk tsk

intense fear of height :O

2010-09-17T13:43:00.000-07:00

words cant describe how much i love you (:

SALAM AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN (:

back to my daily life ,

i almost forgot about my school pesta ria
my class won the highest amount of selling food and other stuffs
pesta ria was greaaaaat , i was in charge to handle the ice cream
ohoho , laku sangaat sampai tak bole rehat even seminit
but then , i met with lots of people and dapat cuci mata
jangan marah ye ahmad zoriff ? sape suruh awak tak datang , lalala
i didnt really hang with siti and faz bcause our time for duty was different
so , i was with zuria most of the time
we went karaoke , concert , ghost house , shop and flirt ;D

suatu hari , saya tonton filem Syurga Cinta
Dlm Al-Quran dinyatakan ada 3 jenis cinta ;
cinta syaitan ; you get to know each other , hold hands dan buat maksiat .kahwin sebab mengandung anak luar nikah .
cinta jin ; you love someone , but tht person doesnt love you . awak pergi bomoh dan orang itu pun berkahwin dengan awak . tsk tsk
cinta Allah ; both of you look at each other then rasa cinta itu wujud sendiri dan terus menusuk ke kalbu . lelaki itu terus masuk meminang dan diterima oleh pihak perempuan . wahh , beginikah ? selalunya saya jea menusuk ke kalbu , takde pun orang masuk meminang ;D

one day bfore raya , my mom almost burn the house ;O
she didnt switch off the stove before we went out to tesco
she rmmbered it when we were in the middle of traffic jam
worse comes to worse , she didnt bring her handphone
and mine was sent to repair *almost two weeks -.-
what ? rasa nak jerit jea , *aaaarrrgghhh !
dahla semua kat ruma tido matii , kalau tbakar pun tak sedar agknya
my mind was flooded with bad things , God knows better
luckily there was one guy saved the day , my heroo <3>

yeah , its so LAAAMMEE
life without a best friend by your side

i went to sunway pyramid with my elder sister
i told you i dont have a friend even to hang out with -.-
ahmad zoriff and ahmad ridhwan were with us too
bole dikatakan double date la nii ;D
luckily they get along quickly tapi zoriff tu pemalu sangat kan ? ish3
we went ice skating , my sis and zoriff fell down twice HAHA
you wouldnt believe who i met coincidensely there ,
someone i considered as an old friend , abdul wahab

people usually look at you for two reasons ;
whether you are pretty or there is/are somethg(s) wrong with you
whenever ppl look at me , i guess it'll be the second one
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ?
is it just bcause i have flat nose , long chin , wide forehead and pretty bad eyebags ? i dont care , you have the right to critic bcause you aint tht perfect after all .
BUT i love the way i am and you should too (:
i may look matured , old or anythg you like to say
but Mun Nyee said tht i have baby face , awwwh (':
suddenly , i miss her so much <3

I NEED TO PUT ON WEIGHT ! *sighs

A Beautiful Lie ♥

2010-09-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

A BEAUTIFUL LIE ♥

WHOA IT HAS BEEN MORE THAN A MONTH -.-
im too busy with my life , my pathetic life
wht could happen in a month or more ?
too many thgs to be shared , just let me tell you in the short version

hari hari , nak update ke taknak ?
nanti jela , esok pun bole . esoknya , takpela esok jela .
begitula hari hari seterusnya sehinggalah hari ini (:

LICENSE ,

i already got my P license but since then ,
i sworn to myself tht i wont ride motorbike anymore -.-
i got new gums for my teeth and new skin for my knee
this is bcause the day bfore i went for the test ,
smthg bad happened , really bad . heh (: no la , small accident jea
just tht my teeth gums were ripped off and my knee err, nothing ,
i couldnt eat and drink well at tht time , sakit mak oii
i got mc for three dayss yaww

a week after tht , i went for religious talk
migrain striked me out of sudden and i went home straight awayy
i vomitted around 4 to 5 times , and i got fever
i got mc for two dayss , the next two days i went to school as usual
but my body temperature went up and down , unpredictable
checked up again , and i got mc for one day -.-

THE DRAMA ,

english oral , we had to do drama entitled Gulp and Gasp
there are four characters in tht drama ,
Rose , thts me
Percy - fazreena
Crouch - miloh
Lord Septic - nisha
its a story about lord septic , the evil onee *MUAHAHAHA
who loves money money and money and could do anythg for tht . probably bcause his dad was like tht , who was brave enough to kill the Lady Gatsby who owned gold . Crouch is Lrd Septic's slave , and very naive -.- rose was once his worker at the match factory but after the fire , she has lost her eye sights . therefore , Sir Percy finally saved him from Lord Septic and Crouch . Percy who was no one bfore tht incident , got to know tht he was son of Lady Gatsby . and they finally managed to find the Gatsby gold in the NSL , new station locker . Lastly , Percy and Rose live happily ever after just like me and faz ;D

RANDOM ,

Loneliness brings me to reality

i feel lost , everyone has gone
no more laughter in my life just like back then
i just realised smthg , smthg tht is sort-of-important
i never really have a best friend , just once
friends ? of course i have lots of them , but best friend is hard to find
probbly its not the perfect time to have one yet , maybe one fine day
i dont even have friends to share problems or anythg
a friend who will be with me trough thick and thin , laugh and cry together
but i always pray for tht , i believe tht i'll meet her or err , him one day

i miss you guys ;
Nur Jannah Bt Esa
Nur Ashmaliena Bt Abd. Aziz
Nur Alia Bt Abdul Nasir
Nur Izzettie Bt Mazlan
Nabihah Bt Rozy
Aizureen Bt Harun
Nur Atikah Bt Samat
Nur Alia Bt Anuar
Syahirah Najihah
Nurul Sofea Bt Ahmad

*the bold one , they used to be my best friends when i was in johor (:

my life has changed since i lost all of them ,
but i learnt to live by myself since then , to be alone -.-
i used to have a group , fazreena , siti , alia , ash , fazziana and me
alia and ash have gone to hostel , fazziana has left me and siti
bcause of a small fight and i do feel guilty for wht i've said to her
truly , i miss you fazziana who would do anythg for me
and i realised tht everyone has their own weakness and advantages

noww , being in Science 4 makes me feel lonely
but lately , i found out tht i still have milo , rachel and simran
and not forgotten my dear cutie pie tyra , but we rarely talk in class only on hp
they make me feel like i still have someone to hold on , to be with
thnks friends (:

PROBLEM ,

remember i told you about my crisis with a teacher ?
hmm , it is not settled yet and maybe nothg really happen
even after i apologised to her , seems like she is very the angryy
i admit tht is my mistake to post it on my blog but no one really read it
i know tht she's still mad at me when she refused to shake hands with me for hari raya thingy , tht was a big SLAP , all i could do was smiled and faced down . my very fragile heart smashed into millions of pieces . thanks to faz , rachel , milo , nishanti , tyra , siti , zuria , dashiniyaa and mun nyee who cooled me down . im truly sorry puan J .

Lost In Fake Enthusiasm

2010-07-17T12:49:00.000-07:00

can we ? =='

it has been a month tht i did not update my blog and lots of ppl request me to do so , so here i am . trying to post everythg tht matters had happened ,

my license ,

i already got L for tht , YAY ME !
waiting for my P test on this 27 , nervouss :0
i pass my computerise license test with DIGNITY .
i only made two mistakes out of F-I-F-T-Y quests *WOW !
and Afiq clled me a NERD , *whatever , you're just jealouss
on the road , i did fell on the ground in front of ppl *memalukan gila , idc
but i still pass for tht , at least i know how to ride and handle it

my mid-term result ,

should i post it ? should i ?
okay then , actually im quite surprised tht i pass all of my subjects *fuuhh
but i still regret tht i studied on the very last min , like 5-10 mins before any paper
my mom would kill me if she knew tht , MUAHAHA
i got only 5A , and the others &$%@!#$*&%$#@!
i never have tht kind of result in my entire life , truly BAD
so , i should study but I CANT D:
too many devils all around me , boo hoo

WORLD CUP ,

Lionel Messi ♥
he is super cute (;
he is an argentina player though and im supporting ,

GERMANNYYY !

Germany got third place , thts okay
im still supporting germanyy :]
holland and spain managed to go to the final
thts quite a good achievement for them since they've never won the WC
so , Spain won the game *fernando torres ♥
sorry Holland , MAYBE the next 4 years you will have a star on your jersey
HAHAHA ;D

for your information ,
you could blame world cup
tht i did not update my blog

Fatima's Birthday ,

HE IS SO MINE ! ♥
taylor lautner , OMG
Eclipse , Twilight

fatima zahrah , diyana syaza , fatin syuhaidah , fatin syazwani and i
watched tht movie together at One Utama ,
I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT (:
and we did shop since OU is so EVERYTHING for a shopaholic
im sorry iman sebab kita tak sempat jumpa kat sana ;(

my CONDITION ,

physically ; yes , im okay
mentally ; im dying , God help me pls ?

i thought tht i should shift to other school ,
i had enough of this fake life , hypocritoss !
thanks to narisa , i do think tht i should just stay here
'lagi setahun jea kak , saba jela ', alright then narisa

HYPOCRITOSS ! =='
i really really hate backstabbers , go DIE
yeah you said it was nothing , but WHAATTAA ?
and the other you , you could just talk to me if you are not satisfied with anythg
OPEN eyy ? yeah right , you will never be
i could not believe you did this to me
and you pretend like normal , like nothg happened
and me , PAINN ! since i also have to pretend like im okayy
to be honest , im not a very goodie good person
i've done wrong and i regret all of them , i hope God will give me second chance and i dont care about you and wht you will sayy

THANKS so-called-friends

sunway pyramid (:

2010-06-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

friends , siblings and family <33
they are precious babeyyhh

SUNWAYY PYRAMID ♥

i went there with siti and my sister , pya only =.= ktm kepong central , there was a shooting on i-dont-know what film or drama . i got the chance to meet with julia zigler , lisa suriani and others who are not really familiar to me .

as we reached ktm subang , pya bought some food while waiting for ridhwan to pick us up . as she was eating , there were three boys at the celcom boost calling for someone . norita , nolita smthg like tht . i was thinking to kill them , wht an annoying sound . masa tu , ramai lagi orang . so i ignored them , but dalam hati tertanya tanya jgk mcm mana diorang tahu ada orang nama nolita or norita kat sini ? whateverr , suddenly pya started to grumble and realise tht the food tastes kinda weird T_T i realised tht the three boys were still calling for nolita or norita eventhough the place was almost empty , APA MASALAH KORANG HA ? tetiba , aku terdiam dan membulatkan mata . 'bukan ker kt belakang cardigen yg aku pkai ni ada tulisan nolita ?' i told pya and siti as they were annoyed too . then they laughed as loud as they could . 'pya , siti ada pape tak kena ker ngn aku ?' maybe the boys were trying to tell me smthg , but as pya and siti said i was just fine . so i decided to ignore them even they were calling me louder and louder . since then , pya and siti started to call me NOLITA -_____________________________________-

'ridhwan dh sampai', thnks God (:
so , we left the ktm subang . FUHHH !

ridhwan left me and siti at sunway pyramid and off to his home with pya . aww , pya already met with her mother-in-law . HAHAHAHA , kat rumah dia mesti control jea kan kan ? :D first of all , we bought tickets for Lagenda Budak Setan . then , we had our lunch at McDonald . after the movie , i searched for pya and ridhwan because they said they were already there . and i watched ppl ice skating , ramai sangat mcm semut =.= so , i encouraged pya and ridwan to join us for skating and i made it . YAY !

siti kept on falling but i tried to teach her even im not tht good yet but I WILL (: i met with this little girl who accosted me , i asked her too many questions tht i forgot to ask the main thing which is HER NAME ! =.=' as i was skating and holding hand with tht little girl , pya raised her eyebrows like she was trying to ask 'who is tht girl ?' i just gave her a big smile . i looked up and i saw zoriff . i smiled at him and gave her a peace sign :D thnks for coming and sorry tht i ignored you at first , there were too many boys . to wan bad , siapa suruh kau pegi mid ? HAHA

holiday spring babyy

2010-06-06T11:05:00.001-07:00

exams got me crazy =='

biology ; go DIE ! i hate you *blames myself for not doing any revision

sejarah ; bagai mencari kuman dalam tepung :0

physics ; my brain almost cracks

chemistry ; *heart attacks* after 5 s , *DIES*

add maths ; *drop deads* hard enough to damage my brain cells

agama , bm, bi, maths and akaun was okay for me .

those are basic subjects after all except akaun =='

i dont want to see my results , I DONT WANT TO !

im scared , not confident at all and ... *sighs*

probably , i should read more books or should i say ...

read even a book is good enough for you syera , har har :D

heyy , im learning to write with my left hand now

i wanted to control it as much as i control my right hand

i started it with drawing a perfect circle

because almost all alphabets have curves and round shapes

and i wanted to control my both brains , do pray for me ppl (:

i should spend more time for study then ,

i have to update my mind with all of the informations

i have to read more books based on general knowledge

everything , i must change . MUST !

may i have some peace for the whole holidayy

i'll be having driving talk , driving test and hangouts

may Allah be with me always and forever :D

G 705

2010-05-29T12:40:00.000-07:00

i'd never sing of love if it does not exist -,-

as my brother walked in the house ,

' YAY ! MY PHONE !'

i reached my phone and tried to type as usual

obviously , its working noww :D

BUT NOW

THE CAMERA IS NOT FUNCTIONING =,=

sony ericsson G705 ,

why ? why now ? do you hate me so much ?

DO YOU ? tell me , dont give me tht look . i said , DONT !

okay , i know im talking to myself rght now

but i know you can still listen to me , i knoww

*giving a sharp look at the handphone*

yeah , i dont know anythg about make up

i rather scribble it on my mirror =,='

i went to ikea *again*

the main reason was to have a meatball ♥ as lunch, *Superduper delicious*

i never like it before but now i do , i do like it *A LOT*

then , we bought pya a lamp study just like mine -,-

and the workers , takkanla tukar every week kan ?

adala yg mcm cam aku ni ha , sengih sengih

as usual , i always give the strange look as if i dont know anythg

mengerutkan dahi , a bit mcm ziana zain tapi tak semantap dia

next week , i'll be taking my motor license

i mean , along the holiday . yeah , thts pathetic *i knoww , like pfft*

but i can still enjoy the holiday and compact it with study , hmm =='

and probably online like twenty-four-seven , hahaha

my life has been so much complicated rght now

i cant read my own heart , everythg is everywhere

i should try to reassemble it probably , neahh should i ?

moment-um

2010-05-18T00:52:00.001-07:00

i actually cant rmmbr them ,

when i was three in Paris :)
for short , i am afraid of being on high places *gayat
p/s : gmba tu cm tipu jea kan ? but its real .

by the wayy ,

last Sunday , i went to ikea with mom and faii . faii made some idiotic attitudes which i dont have to describe . okay , my mom bought for me a study lamp , rug and study table . okay , when we're reaching the carpet part out of sudden one woman came to my mom and hugged her . i was so shocked , and still wondering who is that and tht time the three sons of her came along . okay , my mom talked to her around 15-20 mins . i just waited there all alone -,-" according to wht my mom said , i met them when i was in staffordshire , UK . *refer to the above picture. yeah , my mom and tht aunty has been friends since they were in secondary school , *WOW !* . her sons rmmbr me or maybe not exactly me . i dont know , but we are , i mean both family having the same sort of life .

what a cute lil' boy rght ?
my brother when he was three, if im not mistaken

they didnt accept my idea to make cards for hari keusahawanan ,
i dont care if i have to do it alone , i can even use my own money
but the fact tht no one is supporting me , makes me ....
nevermind , why should i do tht ?
im so into it and so eager to do it , yet i dont have the chance
i will get nothing in the end , i just share my ideas towards arts only
NOTHING !

look at me , HAHA
*so tiny

fyi , my exam is on this thursday
so , pls pray for me a flying colour results :)

life and studyy :]

2010-05-14T10:41:00.001-07:00

tht panda is part of mak uda's present ,
it is actually a place to keep my arts thingyy

bloob , bloob *eyebags*

you know wht ? out of sudden i , i dont know wht to say . this is so-not-what-i-wanted-to-happen . cheese and cracker , imma eat you up . so BEWARE !

LIFE ?
trying to go trough it by hook or by crook , i dont give a damn towards any problem which is so-not-important to me . so i always create small small problem to myself and im enjoying it :D

STUDY ?

i think i have to start study from now on since exam is just err, next week :D but im very the MALAS . even if i could just open the book , it'd be MIRACLE . maybe i should attend any motivational ceramah about my future . neahh , cool jela kan ?

last weekend , there was hari anugerah cemerlang . i was rewarded for getting 8As in my PMR . right after tht , i went back hometown and met with my cousins as usual . miracle did came true , my mama let me slept in mak uda's house . fyi , before i came back home i did singgah to mid valley without mom's permission . omg :0 .since tht sunday was mother's day , i bought her a present . i bought for some other ppl too for their birthday and even for myself :D dont blame me , im a girl .

err, siti's birthday just passed by . i didnt know wht to do , so after bm tuition we brought her to one restaurant and one chocolate cake *delicious gila* ths all , i think . after tht was add maths time . i hate it , i answered wrongly and tht teacher told the whole class but not specififly to whom . other ppl , he talked slowly whts wrong with their answers but me ? i just forgot to put the plus minus in front of the square root , but i still get one answer correct . but i think , the main reason is to make me rmmber till i die .

i just discoverd one thg ,
i have this one big weakness ; very
low self-confidence

anyone could help me out ?

p/s ; zoriff , if you read this . im sorry for acting so weird this lately . i dont know whts wrong with me . im a bit or too emotional . dont be jealous if i cmmnt with other guy , bcause i love you . and i know , no one will love me as much as you love me . haha *jiwang plk*

to rachel , im sorry for wht happened to you . be cool and try to accept it ok ? rmmbr this , you always have me and other friends . we love you and will always support you .

how dull is your life compared with mine ?

2010-05-02T04:48:00.000-07:00

im INSANE -,-

im better off alone -____-

im too innocent and ppl dont usually realise tht im exist, im INVISIBLE . yeah , pfft -,-

my life completely boring and dull lately , im losing grab and im totally feeling down

i keep moving on for the sake of God and my future , i need some moral supports from ANYONE

i really do need some appreciation not as if i have no use living in this world

i may look okay in the outside , but deep inside my heart i feel like going far far away from here , anywhere
somewhere tht i can have some peace , ppl who appreaciate me and realise tht im actually EXIST .

ya Allah , i love You for giving me the chance to live
i have eyes to see the beauty of your invention
i have ears to listen to many thingss
i have hands to do works
i have legs to walk and pray
i have brain to think like normal ppl
YOU invented ME
the most greatful thing is tht i was born as a muslim (;
ILOVEYOU
*tears*

firefliess ;D

2010-05-02T04:34:00.001-07:00

LIFELESS

every morning, school dayy
'syeraaaaaaaa ! ' dang dung dang , *mom knocks the door*
'yeaaaaa...' me with draggy voice

as i walk out of the door ,
one mini bus will go 'pin pin ' with loud sound
O.o can you hon any louder ? *sarcastic*

school has been very lonelyy
yeah , maybe my sister was right
i dont have many close friends only FRIENDS

my mid-term exam is just around the corner but i, i havent start doing my revision yet . im not in the mood to do anythingg, GOD HELP ME !
give me back my strength to go through this lonely life
or send me someone who could lead me and make me happyy again

probably , im not your eminence -,-

2010-04-23T16:04:00.000-07:00

i cant wait to see my hair grow longer again ;D

HEYYY !

it has been so long since my last post, i do miss blogging (: but yeah , i have pile of homeworks every single dayy . *insane* sometimes i feel like dropping account but according to fazreena , scholarship only for those who take 10 subjects .

bee-tee-double u ,
i go online quite often but using phone *wi-fi*. so i cant hardly update my blog . i thought of deleting this account blog . but then , i read the chat box and i found out tht i must go on.

lately , i always struck by headache or fever and hell yeah , idk whyy . probably bcause i ate chocolate too much . I LOVE CHOCOLATE ;(

latest activities ,
i was given the trust to 'jaga masa' for syarahan agama lelaki. cheese and whisel , i should get the perempuan one . *lawa lawa tau , kening kening :DD*

later tht day , UBS time i have to make the alphabet for bena minggu kerjaya and i decided to decorate the board . obviously rght now , i have no idea to decorate it . im trying to find some ideas to win the prettiest board . but usually if im doing it to win , i will never win . so , i have to do it for fun :P yeah , FUN .

to someone out there , i really want you to be honest with me. tell me every single thing tht you did or you will do *important stuff* , its not tht i want to shackle you just that i knew many things about you without you telling me and it does breaks my heart to know tht kind of thing . i wont play with your heart because imma real girl , and i finish wht i start . so , do play your role to my life .

" i cant hardly go to sleep every night probably because i still wanna see the world and YOU since no one know when it will be the last time "

AND

" i am very greatful to know tht i am still alive every morning or every time i wake up from sleep "

after-so-long

2010-03-06T09:32:00.000-08:00

hello blog (:
i really miss youu,
but i aint have time to update you
SORRY.

chinese new year
one week holiday filled with too many activities
i didnt have time to rest, wht a life
first weekends, kak amy's wedding
then monday and tuesday, kak nyah's house
*swimming, yeehaa !
wednesday i hanged out with fazreena
*ice skating, lalala :P
thursday, rest *tido jela kan ?
friday in the morning, bertolak to kedah
*big bungalow, WOW !
sturday evening, came bck house
sunday, ready to go for schoool, i want more holidayy :'(

we had just finished our exams
*the results are too bad, mom's gonna kill me
haha, no she wont :P

we had two weeks with our new biology teacher
Mr. H,he has too many fans
because he has a cute face, and maybe hot
i dont know, but he is a KIND teacher

i have started to go for tuitions
*my very first time :)
im taking 5 subjects which are,
add maths, maths, bm, chemistry and physics
on thursday and friday evening only,
i gotta rush for every friday class *urghh
im so happy going for tuition, bcause i can meet with my ex-classmates
i do miss you guys :(
they make me happy, not like my current one
they dont even talk to me, grr
I MISS ex 3T STUDENTS so muchh !

sports day just passed by,
PRING got no 3 :(
nevermind, tht is wht we called as competition
there will be a winner and loosers
cheerleader, second place *congrates
hiasan khemah, second place jgk *well, im one of them
mrching, dont ask. we never won for the past 4 years
and we got FIRST place for DISCIPLINE :)

thousands of apologises

2010-02-05T10:12:00.000-08:00

an upside down life of mine,
life's like a wheel, sometimes we're at the top and sometimes we're at the bottom. these words are so true.im having trouble at school.

i pled tht i am guilty.

as an ordinary teenager, i did many silly mistakes. im totally imperfect and im not trying to be perfect. mistakes teach me many lessons tht i cant find anywhere else other than from my ownself. sometimes, a mistake is a test from Allah. so, one should take it dgn hati terbuka since Allah only gives test tht one can bare with it. and there MUST be reasons for that.

i thought my life is tough enough. *to those who know in details, pls keep it secret. i dont want this problems to ruin my future, these problems are spirits to be a succesful person with bless from Allah and humans. i must be strong and help my mom to go through it. my mom wouldnt want me to be a bad person, siapa nak kan ?

so now, its the truth
i had done a BIG silly mistakes to a teacher. im asking for thousands of apologises to tht following teacher. if you read this, im truly sorry and i didnt mean to hurt you. i never have any intend to hurt you. and im sorry for making your life more miserable. i know wht you are facing rght now. i know it cant change nothing. i wanna say thnks tht you had taught me science when i was in form 1. tht time, i really love you since i could understand every single thg tht you taught me and i dont have to go for tuition. about the previous post, i hope you read it again. thts not wht SYAIRAH said, but other ppl tht i wont mention their names.still, it was my mistake to post it. i should be more careful in my words.

i scared to go to school for now. i burst into tears tht day after a conversation with one of the teacher since i dont know wht will happen next. lagi lagi im having period, so i become more sensitive and my emotions are not stable. should i shift to another school ? should i ? i cant even go to sleep thinking about this.

'did she knows about it ?'
everytime i look at any teacher, tht would be in my mind

this thg will disturbs my study since i cant get over it. before this, i really really wanted every teacher to know and recognise me. but now, i wish tht no one knows me :( my mom told me tht, you have to be stronger and study harder to prove tht you are not tht type of person. i never went for tuition bfore bcause i really depent on my school teacher since i trust them. obviously, they are good enough as i achieved a great great result for my pmr. but now, i dont think it will be the same anymore.its not tht they are not good anymore, i only think about the KEBERKATAN. Allah pls do help me, You are my only hope. my heart is crying very hard. to all of my friends, thnks for the support.

'ingatkan pandai sangat',
aku tersentap setelah mendengar ayat itu pada mulanya
hatiku bagai dihentak beberapa kali
bermimpikah aku ? tidak, ini realiti !
namun, aku tahu itu merupakan kata kata semangat
mmg benar, saya akui saya tidak pandai
pengetahuanku lebih sedikit drpd setitik air di lautan
terima kasih cikgu kerana menyedarkan saya yg dahulunya terlalu riak

bm and bi,
kedua dua bahasa pun tak fasih, adoii

i will always put on smile even if the sky is falling down

super weird

2010-02-05T10:00:00.000-08:00

since i wear socks twenty-four-seven

so, I NEED MORE SOCKS (;

*to safiah and ahmed fitri,
thnk for the socks you bought from sox world (;

i just love anything with stripes or colourful or both
and and i love polka dots too
lagi lagi the bckground is brown where the dots are pink :)

notes to ppl,
love isnt only about bf ok ?
its about all the ppl around me
*refer on the previous post

battlefield

2010-02-01T06:25:00.000-08:00

urghh, why does love have to be like a battlefield ?

bak kata adah,
' love can be beautiful or a bitter pill '
damn it, i wish i never knew or even heard of tht word, LOVE
i need someone to go through this tough life
i just wish tht it can be like what i wanted,
sudahla syera, berhenti mengharap....................
maybe kau terlalu mgharap cik syera oii,
kau niii mmg @%$*&$~!#* la

i have flu, sore throat and fever
and im hating it, GO AWAYY !

'kau, kalau ada apa apa jadi kat adik kau,
kau tak bagitau ayah, kau yang KENA !'

apa salah daku ? dia yg buat mslh, aku plk yg kena ?
ini TAK ADIL ! syera, cuba kau bgtau apa yg adil ?
hanya Allah, and thts why i love Youu (;

adah oii, ayah kan pena cakap
mcm mana Allah nk syg
kalau kau buat dek jea

betol kata ayah si adah nii, :D

NUR JANNAH BINTI ESA

goodbye darlingg, im gonna miss youu :'(
dont ever forget me and the rest of us
take a good care of yourself
i know you can do it, you can go through the new life
rmmbr this,
I LOVE YOUUU !

wht a busy life

2010-01-26T01:27:00.001-08:00

ocean without waves is so-not-normal

i have been away for a while since im busy with my study. i have a lot of hmwk, seriously i mean a lot and almost for every subject. thoe most loving teachers i ever had (;

some scenes tht happened,

Biology class, Miss Gauthamy
*sorry i dont know how to spell her name
she taught us in Bio, for me its awesome la even though she still young
but there was once out of sudden, she pointed at someone and yelled
'YOU ! you are so pretty la'
and almost the whole class looked at her, HAHA
*tht was kind of weird and embarassing moment

who is she ? HAHA

agama class, we combined with 5 classes
and im the one who had to lead them, fascinating :)
we learned about, perkara perkara yg membatalkan IMAN
heee, pityy iman aqilah :DD i kenakan her

one fine night turned into darkness when hot cooking oil spilted on my hand
*quiet. suddenly, awwwwwwwwww ! *screamed out loud
almost all of my ibu jari kena, and thnks to lotion aliano
there's no scar, i love you aliano (;

school ? last saturdayy, damn it
luckily time went very fast tht i didnt realised it was time to go bck already
HAHA
boarding school ? i dont know, i dont think tht i should go
yes or NO ? yes or NO ? NO ? yes ? which one ?

having stranger in the house ?
my elder sister's bf came over to my house last weekends
and slept at my lil' sister's room, ghee
there were like, wars between me, lil' sister with my elder sister

MY 16th BIRTHDAY :)
fazreena, 'hari ni hari jadi kau ?'
smpai hatimu tak ingat birthday aku wehh :'(
jannah, 'nnti balik kita pegi selayang mall tau ?'
ashmaliena and siti plk, muka kosong jea and wish
'kau nk gi mana balik nii ?' aku tanya fazreena *sbb dia tukar bju pj
'mak aku ajak pegi rumah aunty aku, tak bole tgk org sng'
the other classmates also wished me, thnks guys and even myspacers

balik tuu, jannah ajak pergi playground
i was like, I DONT WANT. its very dangerous outside there
someone had been mollested, cant you rmmber ?
i kept on mumbling and grumbling, jannah started to shove me
i was like, okay thenn but just for a few minutes ok ?

SUDDENLYY...
i herad someone was singing
'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, happy birthday to you...'
and she appeared from behind the big tree like hindustan story tuu
and there she was, fazreena islam
and another girl, siti with the cake
and lastly ashmaliena :DD
seriously, i was surprised
THANKS FRIENDS, i really appreciate it
iman aqilah, thnks for the unique flower
*flower tuu made of kain tau, lawaa :)
ahmad zoriff, thnks for the birthday presents too :D
*teddy bear tuu, comel la
fatima zahrah, thnks for the lovely card dear
wan ahmad badiuzzaman, thnks sbb on handphone on monday night and wish aku
ex, mohd noor thnks too. dont cheat on your gf dumbass, be honest

priya asked me,
'awak pegi mana mana pun pakai tudung ea ?'
and surely my answer is yes
then dia ckp lagii,
'if awak tak pakai tudung mesti org kata awak ni kacukan/mixed'
HAHA, saya pure malay laa priya oii *jap, ye ker ? entah :D

i kinda like my chemistry teacher, puan tan :)
she is unable to say the alphabet T very well, cutie
she has nice body shape, weee :)
and she always wears short skirts, heeee
and the way she teaches us is quite easy to understand

MISS GAUTHAMYY
she's already gone to further her studyyy
and she didnt even said goodbye, how could you teacher :'(
im totally sad, i already started to love biology you know ?

Cik Liyana, wee
a pretty and kind teacher
she has a very soft voice, sopan santun and lemah lembut
she wears different clothes everyday, semua lawa lawa :D
since she is teaching me bm, so far i think i can catch up

physics, puan johana
she failed to be a teacher ?
someone said tht, and the class is in chaos every time she teahces us
since physics are based on formula, so she teaches us about tht
only 2 or 3 of us can undertsand her
and i tried to invent my own way to calculate by using hers, HAHA
succeed ! and i told the others who asked me only
*but im not sure, better dont follow
if salah, i dont want to be blamed

2010-01-11T07:56:00.000-08:00

i need air, clean air to keep me alive

first of all,

aizat won the Anugerah Juara Lagu (AJL) by the song pergi
he did asked me to watch aizat's performanced,
bcause he sang this song for me bfore, but i dont really like it
even tho i used to like it, like wan bad's principle
"dulu lain, sekarang lain,"

ok then, school as usual
we had assembly, announcements and bla bla
i hate it, but why almost every teachers love to look at me ?
**HAHA, syera perasan jea :DD
then pendidikan agama islam periods,
we are combined with three classes, 4Sc3, 4Sc4 and 4A1
wee, kita satu kelas kan siti ? kan kan ? fazziana jea takde :'(
then, ustazah choosed the ketua kelas, majority votes la
im the number one to be nominated, gheee atika nihh
then, i got to be the leader and my assistant, jannah sygg :)

tujuan, hanya utk berlagak
biasala, sape tak kenal anak hassan ni kan ?

then, we went to selayang mall
had our lunch at McDonald, thnks khamisah for the treat
and we had to go home by cab since its raining heavily, for serious

love, why does it have to be so hard and hurtful ?

to my lovely sim crd,
can you pls work with me for another few days ?
you are driving me crazyyy :(

2010-01-10T05:17:00.000-08:00

hey im in form 4 now (;

i have new subjects,
biology, chemistry, physics, add maths and account

i have to be more serious in my study strt from now on
no more playing, going too much online, sleeping all day long and bla bla bla
but how if i get the offer to sbp ? should i go ?
i really really hate this part rght here, this is confusing

my heart tell me nothing this time, shishh -,-

i got into 4Sc4, fyi peeps 4Sc1 - 4Sc4 are just the same
there is no streaming in our school, pls and thnk you :)
they put 8A's malay first, iman and adilla was with me
and after tht, we had to draw our class, there it was 4Sc4
adilla was praying for 4Sc1 and yeah after third day
she was forced to move to 4Sc1, i felt guilty for not volunteering
the teachers asked the 8A's malay student to exchange since we didnt have malay prefect.ghee, me, iman and adilla pretended like we are not but then, puan rabi'ah called me out. i was like err, err, im the secretary. the others, 'syira jangan pergi, dont go, dont leave us', iman just buat dont know and adilla was the one, the chosen one :'( i felt guilty to ranina, sorry nina.

the other classmates who i recognised are,
ash, atika, aqilah, tyra, syana, nina, zuria, iman, farsha, fazreena, millo, rachel, lai kee, yuin yee, nishanti, simran, dashiniya, siew yee, yi wen, callie choo and others

the deepest dimple :D

result pmr, OMG !

2009-12-25T09:57:00.000-08:00

faces shown tht i was nervous -,-

ok, seriously i coudnt go to sleep tht night
the night before i got my PMR result, i was extremely nervous
i cant think of anythg else thn tht, so i went online
zoriff, asyiqin and fara felt the same too :D *glad to know tht
but until about 4, i started to feel sleepy so i fast asleep
and around 6 smthg,
'syera ? amik result kul bape ? nnti mak ngn ayah maik sekali tau ?'
i was kinda blurr but then, 'huh ? wht ? both of you ?'
so, i went online again and webcam-ing with ppl
'syera, chill. its not the end of the world'
'i know you will get 8A punya, dont worry about tht'

my mom said, she will arrive around 10.30
so, i waited like tunggul rupanya 11.30, adoiiiii
my friends were waiting for me, but they already went home pun
ghee, as i were in the car 'GO SYERA !' from faii
thnks for the support u guys, i really appreaciate it
'piah, syera takot :'('
as i arrived, kerani said 'syairah ? ha, dh lama tggu'
'rasanya dapat straight A nihh' *kau ckp kt semua org cmtu ek ?
HAHA, so i signed my name and she gave me the slip
and and jeng jeng jeng

*click at the picture for larger view
8A peeps ;)

so, i hugged piah as tight as i could
im totally happy and relieved :DD

bangga jgkla nak bgtau org

OMG, pmr result ? :'(

2009-12-22T10:49:00.000-08:00

this is the shirt he gave me :D

today i woke up at 4, ghee its too early but i just couldnt go back to sleep. so i did qiamulail, tawakal syera. i am worrying about my upcoming pmr result like every single second, minute, hour and day :'( God, i dont know why i cant get over it. i promise to post out my result even though result tu teruk. i must be proud with wht i will get :DD

"if u ever find a better or sweeter person than me,
go ahead syera

i wont stop you

but when tht person leaves you.
look behind, i'll be there for you
me, always waiting for you"

this is wht mohd noor sent to me, ghee. whts wrong with him ? why now ? not before ? its too late to be nice rght now, im so sorry tht i already found someone else
*in this case, like im the one who is guilty ey ? trust me, he started it first

'love needs sacrifice'

this is wht wan bad told me at the end of our conversation in ym
**sounds like he is more professional about love plk kan ?

to, azril afiq bin khelikuzzaman
sorry i broke you heart, pls remind this
not every girl is useless. in my case, i already tried to tell you
i told you because i dont want you to think of tht
IM SERIOUSLY SORRY IF I HURT YOU
i hope you will find someone who suits you better
but the person isn't me, i repeat not me !
you love someone too much, smtimes you have to let it go
trust me, if she is yours she will come bck ok ?
**smtimes kau pun cm afiq jgk syera oii

AHMAD ZORIFF BIN MOHD TAHIR
hey, thnks for the t-shirt and thnks for listening to every single thg i said
he is very understanding guy, notice tht people
i told him everythg, and trust me tht i wont lie to you except if i had to
i even told who i ever love or i talk to or been with *Adeh cmne dia bole tahan ?

those words, have the deepest meaning (;

thnks for this song afiq,
it makes me cry

i dont understand why
why do you want me so much ?

there are millions pretty and cute girls outside there
im just an ordinary one tht you can find, trust me

cousin's cribs

2009-12-19T08:16:00.000-08:00

hajar, faii and me

faii, me and angah

hajar, faii, me and yaya

yaya and me :)

'syeraaaaaa ! bangun, jom pergi rumah mak uda', they said. i was like ' huh ? whats happening ? wht time is it ?' they told me the whole story, so i just followed the order.

we went to mak uda's cribs by train, piah let us go at mid-valley. okay syera, you can take a good care of your ownself and you lil's sister.

we arrived there safely, wee :D
as i arrived, angah asked to massage his feet then mak uda's. after tht, i had a look on the t-shirt tht zoriff gave to me :) its kinda big but i likeee, thnks ahmad zoriff bin mohd tahir. mak uda asked me who gave it, i told her the truth and she said 'kau nak tunggu dia bagi kau kereta ker ?' aisehh, blushing habes

then we had our lunch and some conversations. tht evening we went to pick up kak yam from her hostel. the car was kinda full with me, faii, hajar, yaya, angah and mak uda. there's one part i cant forget. angah was trying out my phone camera to a motorcyclist, adehh dia perasan plk angah nak amik gamba dia. then he fasten his motorcycle. so, we were left bck. i dont know how, we managed to catch up and all of us took out our phone and pretending like we want to take his pictures, just like paparazi-s. HAHA, terus pecut :D

okay, we planned to go for a movie the next day. i thought we were going to the mines but lastly we went to jusco cheras. adam, yaya, maii, faii, angah, aiman, hajar and me were part of the list. we watched the princess and the frog. its a funny and romantic story :) thnks angah for the popcorns, water and everything. i wish i have tht kind of brother, caring jgkla. he even bought smthg for adam before we went back.

we went home around 7.30pm. mak uda couldnt pick us up. so, we had to go back with only one car. nevermind, i dont care. we had fun except tht we had to wait about 2 hours before the movie start.

tht night, i asked them permission to use the computer. i gotta ym with ahmad zoriff and i showed them his webcam :) you, jangan malu malu :D

the next day, i woke up late in the afternoon. damn it, we had to go back home by today which is friday. i dont want to but i had to since we promised with dad. we had to respect his order or i think we couldnt go there again.

saturday, it was a plain day. today, it was a BIG MESS ! i got scolded by mom as i woke up and everythg went terriblely. i should start my day with a good thing i guess. my mom asked me and faii to go and buy school things but i refused and lastly i just bought scholl uniform. thts all, urgghhh !

mysterious =,="

2009-12-14T07:21:00.000-08:00

tht guy is so mysteryy =,="

last saturday, i went to Carrefour as usual ;) but this time, my elder sister and lil' sister were going too. as i walked in the biscuits lane, there was one guy with a black hat and coat. err, he is a quite good looking guy but seriously mystery. he looked at me and i just ignored him. as i walk passed him two or three steps, i turned bck and he disappeared. thts totally weird, and after tht i didnt see him anymore. yea, carrefour is kinda big but i already walked around and didnt find him. he is so mysterious -,-

okay, and tht evening we went off to our lovely hometown, but you know we were not prepared so we got ready by only 5 minutes. HAHA, luckily i didnt left anythg :) mak lang said she wanted to take a lift with her grandson, emir.

this small lil' kid, he is hyperactive and super duper talkative. my elder and lil' sister was fast asleep and i have to treat him. i didnt bring my charger, to keep him quiet, i had to give him my phone. urghh, game game game is all tht matter for him.

tht night, i went to my mom's second cousin's wedding. and we all sit on one table but we had insufficient chair. so i asked from another table, tht guy is so deaf ! i already screamed for too many times but dia buat dont know jea. i understand if the music was quite loud but i guess other person could hear my voice. ghee, wht a guy. then, tht night emir had a hard time to sleep. so, i have to keep him accompanied. he wanted to sleep with us, so i gave up my place and i slept down. baikkan saya ?

tht morning, i woke up for solat subuh then i fast asleep again. as i woke up, ija and piah already had their breakfast. so i went down and had my breakfast too. tht nasi lemak was ostentatious delicious. after tht, we got ready to go bck home. before tht, piah took some pictures of her. thts all i did :)

HAHA, takde keje
look properlyy :)
senget, the car moved too fast :)

i took those pictures as i was too bored in the car
emir kept on bothering me as i tried to sleep, eei budak kecik nihh

2009-12-11T01:46:00.000-08:00

love your life

happy belated birthday, nur jannah :)

p/s; pls take care of tht love dear

heyy, i went to jannah's house and we hangout at selayang mall jea. since her house nearby with it. i bought tht love for her. half for me and the other half for her, weee~

you know wht ? im so bored till i feel like i want to suicide. HAHA, kidding :DD seriously, i dont know wht to do. anyone have any idea ? gheee, i guess u guys feel the same thg too.

lately, i have sudden swing mood. urgghh, and headache struck me -,- i hate tht ! i usually feel down and stress. whts wrong with me ? God help me pls ?

'aku tak penah nampak kau gelak nampak gigi..' aik ? apesal si wan bad IM kt ms mcm ni then terus off. GILA =,=" nevermind, biarla dia nihh.

i got news tht my brother had a tough life at Sabah. since he just moved there, he has nothg seriously nothg. he sleep on the floor and he has insufficient clothes since he left the luggage with us. but if im not mistaken, he had already got the luggage from my father's friend. i miss you :'(

i dont believe in love,

tu mmg immatured thinker la kan ? seriously, i keep on thinking 'why we have this feeling ? love towards ppl from different sex ? adehh, why cant we just be friends ? i just dont understand this thg.

i hate to have a lover since i easily get jealous. i decided not to care about anyone so much. if i did, i will know every single thg he did even if he lied to me. so, just dont get near me. i warn you but if you dare to come close, take your own risk ok ?

love quotes,

"sometimes i wish i was little kid again. skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts.."

"trying to forget someone you love so much is like trying to remember someone you have never met.."

save our next generation

2009-12-05T04:02:00.000-08:00

SAVE our next GENERATION

tht dream makes me even stronger :D

tht night, i dreamed tht out of sudden every boys started to hate me, WHOA ! thts a BIG SHOCK ! okay nevermind, it makes me even stronger not to be with anyone. i aint care if you hate me, thts none of my bussiness. i rather be invisble than being the girl tht ppl talk about, it could be good thgs but could be bad thgs too. lalala, and the day saved by the dream :)

saiful amri, an ordinary form 2 boy. i was surprised to know tht he is a smoker. he is just 14, wht is wrong with this world ? wht will happen in the feature ? will i find a guy tht dont smoke ? how about my children ? im scared to death. YA ALLAH, kau tolongla hamba hambamu ini. berila kami petunjuk dan hidayat tanpa putus. kau selamatkanla mereka daripada gejala gejala negatif sesungguhnya kami mahukan yang terbaik di masa hadapan. AMIN~

im gonna miss you :(
MOHD AFIQ MOHAMMED HASSAN

as i woke up in the morning err maybe afternoon :) i saw my sister, she was trying to wake me up. ghee, she's annoyed me. so, i woke up and took a bath. i really really wanted to send my lovely brother Afiq to LCCT, KLIA, since he'll be moving and working at Sabah :( so, i quikcly got dressed and got into the car. as we were on the way there, a guy looked at me without a blink of an eye. haihh, kau tuh dahla naik motor. dah lama hidup apa ? kau pikir aku nih alien ? ahh, ignored tht guy.i dont want to be the cause of his death :D

and then we stopped by at one perhentian. solat asar and had some drinks, i tried not to be the center of attraction. i hate to be one, im not an alien peeps. so, we arrived LCCTand my parents handled my brother's luggage. WTF ? nak kena bayar rm350 if nak tambah luggage ? tak logikla wehh, tiket pun lagi murah.so, my mom decided to post it rather than to bring along. i greeted and hugged my brother before he goes, i thought of not letting him go but tht would be an embarrassment for him. so, i let him go :'( i hope he will be fine at there. so, we went home, before tht we bought ice creams from McDonald. ada lagi sorg mamat, jalan pandang depan weh kan dah langgar orang. lala, not my fault :)

fyi, too many handsome guys there :) i cant take my eyes off them. lalala, aku perempuan macamla korang tak mcm tuhh. tipu tipu tipu, tak baik dosa masuk api neraka :) lagipun, pandang jea i dont have heart for them. there's no empty space in my heart anymore. i closed it for any boy to come in.

love means nothing :)

2009-12-04T12:33:00.000-08:00

Love means nothing

i got tired with boys, i just cant believe any of them -,-

i kept on trying and waiting for my true love but lastly i give up. i just cant believe in one, it seems to be hard for me. if you really do love me, pls wait until i finish up my spm. i just couldnt live with anyone, it will be miserable, i mean big miserable to any boy who is with me. lalala, ouh yes im a bad person. i love to shove ppl, i quickly get jealous, im an ego person and i usually get mad easily. any problem ? if u have any problem with tht, just back off. im sorry but i guess i dont need your opinions :)

let me be all by myself, keep gate closed at all times

im fine by myself, my friends and family. i can keep holding on with them, i hope so. knock it off with all those craps, lets talk about my daily life. lalala, actually i miss going to school :( i miss their laugh, their gossips, their voices, their faces and everythg about them. but if study, thts not going to come on my mind :) as a normal human being, we dont usually be grateful with wht we have. when we have black hair, we want to be blonde or smthg else. if we have straight hair, we want a curly hair. there is no stop for tht, but wht if we have none of them ? think of tht and be grateful with all tht we have *baik konon, mcmla aku tak.

most of my time, i filled with online-ing and sleep. thts all i did, nothg else. and my dad said, you are getting lazier and lazier day by day. if ths thing happens continously, i will shut the astro, internet and take bck your handphone. luckily, it can makes me sleep more often after tht :) yeppi ! this evening, i helped my mom in the kitchen, cooked nasi ayam. as i cut the cucumber, i saw two female cats and a lil kitten ran off from smthg. so i tried to find out the reason. and i saw a male cat came towards them, as one of the female cat climbed up the grill of the door, the male tried to catch it. but wht makes me confuse, as the female cat came down, the male one just let it be. there's a big question mark in my head

???

this song was given by ahmad zoriff
but i guess it isnt really for me
it sounds like he misses her ex-gf
and it suits her better than me, i guess

to someone, sorry i just cant trust your words
i believed tht you are trying to avoid me, nvm

in and out

2009-11-30T15:09:00.000-08:00

PAVILION

credit ; abiel ;)

hey hey peeps ;)

i am currently searching for who i really am. gheee, what a crapper. but seriously, do you really really know your own self ? think again.

the night before we went to pavilion, i couldnt go to sleep *as usual. i lied down and sway with the dream. 'i make them good girls gone bad...' my phone rang so i had sudden awaked. and then, i didnt go to sleep bck since i COULDNT. grr !

so, i went online-ing. i logged in myspace and ym ;) i was webcam-ing with ppl till the dawn. mainly i just ym with ahmad zoriff, wan ahmad badiuzzaman and siti nur asyiqin. but mostly with wan bad, actually he wanted to off earlier but we kept on ym-ing till he forgot. sengal betul kau nihh -,-

yes, im off to pavilion. first of all, we got on a taxi to abiel's house. then we waited for the bus. as i jumped in the bus, surely i searched for a seat. then, an aunty holding her baby called me out and asked me to sit beside her, as i sit i said thanks :)

then, we took a train to bukit bintang. fully-loaded so we had to stand. cheese and cracker, im tired ;| 'PAVILION', as i stepped on the entrance of the shopping mall. we straight away to buy tickets for movie. NEW MOON, seriously this movie was a BLAST ! it tells us about love and how we communicated with it. damn it, i fell in love with jacob <33 let me tell you the synopsis, its a common thg happen in relationship. edward cullen had to leave bella since e and his family are vampires. bella went crazy and suddenly being closed with jacob, grr i love him ! jacob did anythg to keep bella safe, sweet gilaa. thts wht makes me like him. but at last, bella choose edward instead of jacob. nevermind, he is mine <33 the ending makes me cant wait till the othe one comes out, eclipse. 'marry me, bella', ghee edward said tht.

all we did is window shopping babeyhh ! i bought only one shirt, HAHA. we walked to sungei wang then low yatt, lastly time square then we returned to pavi to perform solat. seriousl, its kinda fun fun fun :) *cerita macam batak jea kan ?when we were walking, we could see keindahan malam :) if my mom knows tht i walked around the kl at night, she will never give me the permission to go out again. actually, if she knows the whole story. we walked by the chow kit, seriously its creepy, gulp. bb bistro, seriously too many ppl shisha jea. i will never touch it, insya-Allah.

its a normal thg for every girl to be flirt by boys at there. you dont need a pretty face to be flirt, they just do it for fun, so, relax and just ignore them like i always do ;D **shiny teeth. but siti suka bahan aku ngn benda tuh, grr !

and yeah, as i solat maghrib i saw a pretty young lady. i cant take my eyes off her. seriously, she is too pretty. i felt like marrying her, kau dah gila syera ? she has fair and smooth skin, eyes are the most attractive and her eyebrows, fuuhh lebat and lawaa. before maghrib, we have been for zohor. we met a pretty girl too :)

finally :)

2009-11-25T07:05:00.000-08:00

i am tired with these three words, i love youu

yesterday, my elder sister came bck home :) im so so happy since i didnt meet her quite a long time a go. so we talked and talked until about 5 in the morning and mostly about my family's condition. yeah, i didnt sleep :D

okay, then we rushed to have our bath since we had to move to tanjung bidara by 5.30. actually we went to visit my second brother, he had finished her latihan Suruhanjaya Pencegah Rasuah Malaysaia (SPRM) and will start working by next monday. i cried when i knew tht since he will be in Sabah :'(

as time were 6.30, my dad stopped by at perhentian seremban to perform solat and breakfast. i met a lil boy with a curly hair, then he looked at me as if there's smthg wrong with me, menakutkan. i ate kuey tiaw plus sausage, yum yum :D

you know wht ? the place kinda pedalaman skit, so my sisters and me felt like vomitting. urgghh, i couldnt stand it -,- err, as we arrived everyone pun kenal my dad. of coursela, my dad pun work as SPRM and penolong pengarah area kl. so, we could sit at the VIP seats. my dad wore coat, ahaa weird :D

as everythg finished, i met my brother. i hugged her, i really miss him even tho he sweated a lot. then, we had lunch which i didnt ate anythg. i just looked around, and talked with my lil sister. i heard tht many ppl thought tht me and my elder sister are twins, HAHA. then, we waved to my brother as we were going home. he will be bck by tomorrow since he still have smthg to do there.

then on my way home, singgah perhentian mana tah. serious sunyi jea, i felt like wanna pee so i tried to open the door. it was locked, WHAT ? so, i grumbled and grumbled *yes, i love to grumble. i tried again and suddenly ada laki keluar. mmg terkejutlaa, adoii. so, i performed solat first. surau tu bersih plus sunyi. before solat, me and my sisters on the fan and lay down under the fan :D waaaah ! sejuuukk ! then, kitorang singgah rumah mak uda but hajar and mai jea ada, fyi i forgot to bring mai's present. urrghh !

as we arrived home, i straight away tidur matiii -,-

nightmares scared me :'(

2009-11-23T09:35:00.000-08:00

waiting for true love is exciting =,="

you know wht ? i have weird dreams lately. i could tell tht its kinda criminal and have nothing to do with me at all, whts happening ? why am i having those nightmares ? there's one night i dreamed about a rich family. and the eldest killed the youngest one bcause of jealous. he killed her violently, urghhh ! then one night plk, i dreamed about a girl been chased by a raper. what are these thgs have anythg to do with me ? cheese and cracker !

death are waiting for me ? hush hush !

remember the day i told you tht i washed the porch ? before tht, i took the penembak air from under the stairs. suddenly, i jumped as i surprised. and 'BANG !' my head knocked onto the stairs and i could see stars around my head. dizzy dizzy, and faii was rolling on floor laughing her ass out. i thought it was just a small small thgy but then i can feel the pain rght untill this moment. grr ! curse you stairs ! 'tasha, kau ni beratla weh', yeah i could hear siti's voice even tho they were about 30 metre away from me. yeah, and then 'assalamualaikum, syeraaaaa !', yeah they came to my house. we chit chatting then siti said, 'apa kata kita try test webcam kat sini ?', so, we just agreed and turn it on my computer's screen. WHOA, it has a clear view. i must buy it ! okay, we captured pictures for sure. me, faii, abiel and siti, the four of us :) tonight, my mom made me pasta. my favourite food <33>

i was born to be secretive

2009-11-22T08:54:00.000-08:00

try and read this,

i have a wonderful life
yeah right syera ? you're lying
thts not good, you're lying to yourself
okay okay, i admit tht i dont have a wonderful life
im fake, i always pretanding like im happy instead of crying when im sad
i laugh as loud as i can when im feeling sad the most (:
i dont usually cry for thgs, and yeah i dont take anythg seriously
i have too many problems tht cant be solved, seriously
its not only about me, its about my family
everyone in my family is an ego person
except for my lil sister, yeah she is wild and bla bla
but at least she shows the real her, how much she loves someone
my mom and dad never say this word, i love youu
and they never even show it :(
i have a broken family but its getting better since we have grown up
how worse could it be ? tell me, tell me *faii, stop licking me !

we, i mean the sisters have our own way to have some loves
my elder sister, she visits my mak uda's family oftenly
at there, she is like guest of honour, they love her so much
then, me ? i used to have it by looking for a boyfriend
but obviously it doesnt work tht way, yeah im still searching for a way
and my lil sister, she closed with many seniors
yeah, they love her but not all of them like her
but anyway, we are just trying to have some loves instead of our own loves

when i talked about this to other ppl *not only this
they said, i am too young to think and face those things
yeah, but at least i can think maturedly and be more relax if it happens again in the future
i believe these words, God will not give us test tht we cant faced it
God knows better than we do, so dont ever give up with everythg u are facing

sory ppl, im really secretive
i dont talk to ppl about my life much
and yeah, no one knows the real life of mine
one word, unpredictable

officially forgotten him :)

2009-11-22T05:44:00.000-08:00

MOHD NOOR BIN MOHD KASSIM
Rest In Peace

i first met you was in friendster -,-
and i got to know tht you are in the same school as my sister
yeahh, even 5 msgs didnt bother me about youu
you kept on sending msgs which annoyed me
and i just gave some stupid excuses to avoid youu
HAHA, and funny tht you still trying

after tht, me and you were together
yeah, i admit tht we had a great time at first
you did everythg tht can make me happy :)
you text me even tho u are in boarding school
you be there when i needed you, everytime i tell youu
u were like my soulmate at tht time
you still trying to bring handphone even tho
your handphone have been seized twice and lost one
even your biasiswa have been took away -,- sorry for tht
you tried to call me every single time you were free
isnt tht nice ?

as a couple, there must be lots of arguements
so, we end up our relationship as we were already 1 year and 3 months
21.06.08 till 21.09.09
yeahh, i can already accept it :D
so, his family doesnt really like me i guess
since they are not agree dia couple couple, bla bla bla
they were too many obsticles between me and him
we couldnt contact too much since her mom dislike me
when i know tht, i demanded just to be friends
but he said, NO. so i just followed the flow
i always cried for him and my siblings hate him for tht
"No man is worth your tears, and when you find the man who is, he'll never make you cry"
i stick to these words since it give the meaning of love
then, you said you were already boring with me
you miss me but you just dont know why you dont want to call me
i know your faith in me had fading by tht time, like duhh

thgs tht i hate the most about youu
all this time, you asked me not to talk to any boys
i really obeyed tht, i didnt accost any boys
and i didnt reply any msg from boy until they said, im snobbish
but i ignored tht, since i love youu
i hoped the same thg from you, so i trust you
then, one day your secrets are revealed. MUAHAHA
i got to know tht you are really closed with many girls
even when you went for exchanging student to SEMASHUR
u took many pictures with girls and yeah i just kept quiet
and i know tht you even ym-ing with many girls
siap berlawak and bergurau senda lagi, BOO youu !
even when i ask youu, whether its true or not
you answered, NO. what a bad liar could you be rght ?
boys are boys, i cant change tht and neither youu
so, we had a big arguement before i officially said bye
and you said tht you cant stand with my attitude since you met me *sengal
why didnt you left me earlier ? i thought i already told you tht im annoying
and you already found someone nearby your house
so, im happy for tht and i hope you will be with her happily (:
seriously, he said tht im an ego girl but actually he is the one
but read this, he is really good in making jokes, stupid jokes
yeah, which can make you laugh your ass out when you are alone

sorry friends, i mean girlfriends
i didnt really tell anyone about this, i guess no one at all
i tried to face it alone, and tht time i just remembered one person
who is, my sister safiah mohammed hassan (:
she have gone through even worse thn this, i tell you
i hate tht guy, freaking sh**

seriously, i already forgot him
my sister said, you are not over him yet
but actually, im not tht type of person
if i can post this kind of thg, means tht
i already can accept it :D

hug me, hug me, hug me pls ?

2009-11-21T07:48:00.000-08:00

takde kerja, amik gmba ni :D * act, for someone

i need a comfort one -,- im damn cold **menggigil

'urggh, i cant get my head up', ouhh my earphone coil round my neck. luckily im not dead, but thts wht happen every morning as i wake up. but i should take it off before sleep, since my phone will automatically answered by itself with earphone on it.

so, this morning ahmad zoriff called me. HAHA, i just woke up so i cant spontaneous answered it, so i hang up. then he called again, so i answered with my sleepy voice. **blushing

okay, yesterday i did nothg except ym-ing and cmmnt-ing ppl kat myspace. i left my ym online but im not there, and ija said 'weh, pesal ramai sgt peminat ?', i went 'wht ?', ni ramai orang buzz kau kat ym, off jela weh. yeah yeah whtever.

err, today went a bit crazy bcause of starving. bapak, mana ni ? kata nak belikan nasi lemak ? melompat dan grumble byk byk, bapak pon balik. HAHA. and my mom plk mengadu to my dad about how lazy i have been and my dad sengih jea. HAHA, boo youu ! so, i pretend to be rajin :D my mom said ada banyak kerja, but then i asked her to list down ada stu jea. sakit jiwa akuu. so, i took a decision to wash the porch. actually i wanted to play with the water, HAHA. me and my sister, faii play with the penembak air. you know wht is tht ? benda tu mmg kuat gilaa, mcm menembak jea :D

then, i cleaned my room's fan and window. berkilat youu ! pastu maaakaaann ! *again. my sister said, i eat like i didnt eat for 10 years. actually everytime pun cmtuu, penuh bernafsu if makan. HAHA

after tht, tiduuuurr ! now, im online-ing -,-

"No man is worth your tears, and when you find the man who is, he'll never make you cry"

boredom struck me -,-

2009-11-19T10:45:00.000-08:00

help me to grab it pls ?

every morning, i will receive this msg 'syera, good morning', surely from,

ahmad zoriff
err, i-dont-know how to describe him

he wakes up early every morning, if its for me, bangun untuk solat jea then continue berdengkur. he is fine gentleman kot. baik jea and i dont really know about him yet but sooner :D

you know wht ? its really hard for me to wake up for solat subuh but if its for going to school, it'll be easier. Allah, why ? help me pls ?

you know wht ? along this week, i did nothg -,- seriously. i just cleaned up the house almost every day. on monday, jannah came to my house for photoshoot i guess. HAHA, we did nothing except to snap pictures.

and tht tuesday, i woke up quite late. so, i rushed to clean up the house. then, i had my shower and solat. suddenly mom call and asked to accompany her to carrefour to buy groceries. okay, i hurriedly get dressed and solat asar plk. at there, as usual ppl love to see my face like there are no other human. actually,im an alien. hello human :D

okayy, tht wednesday plk. i slept all over the dayy. mengamuk tak tentu pasal lepas bangun. actually i got too bored and i really really wanna go out of this house. i felt like stuck in a house -,- but then, he text me and everythg became okay again.

zuhdi, stop saying tht azim is my boyfriend. he is not i tell youu, NOT ! err, bck to me. and this thursday plk, i slept all over the day again. i had many dreams i tell you. but i enjoyed it, thts why i kept on sleeping. HAHA. and before my mom sleep, she ikatkan me tocang :D but my mom said, my hair is too soft and can easily terbuka tocang nihh -,-

heyy, i love this song - kelly clarkson, already gone. at one day, mohd noor missedcall me and i gave him tht song.

guess wht ? i love youu (:

weird things you can find in ipoh ;)

2009-11-15T18:32:00.000-08:00

i went to ipoh yaww :)

ok, the night after my last post was a messed. can you imagine, my sister's phone being seized, HAHA. served you right ! i told you not to bring but you keras kepala. so, my parents went wild and nagged and tak pasal pasal i got involved. cis, bedebah kau faii.and daddy said, 'i want to see your final exam's result'. and i went, 'WHAT ? her result is worse thn mine even when im in form 3.

day after tht, my mom went yelled 'banguuunn, pergi ipoh !' i was like, in the morning morning ? urrghhh, noooo. i was still sleepy okay ? and i woke up and packed up in a rush. and we moved before 8 am.

here i was in ipoh, with the brown baju kurung i walked dengan megahnya. it was my cousin's wedding. everythg went very well, i guess.

and you know what ? at there, i live without a handphone and wallet. i tell you, it was a miserable. i forgot to bring my charger and the most important, i forgot to bring a jeans. so, wht were i wore when we went for shopping ? guess wht, i wore skirt. urghhh, i felt like crying. as i kept on grumble non stoply, my dad gave some money and i managed to buy a jeans and a shirt. HAHA. on the sport, i changed the skirt into jeans.

after tht, we went for dinner and mak ngah's house. on the way to mak ngah's house, i saw sekola menegah tunku abdul rahman(STAR), it reminds me of

wan ahmad badiuzzaman
an old friend of mine in labuan

he is schooling there. as i was there, suddenly dia text (masa ini handphone masih ada bateri) me. *mcm tau tau plk dia tu. so, i told him about me being in ipoh. he excitedly asked me to come and visit him. i want to but my dad isnt tht sporting, he wouldnt go, with mom maybe i could go and see him :) the next day, we went for the big big wedding.

you know wht, we had to be the first to come and almost the last to go bck home. i was like dont-know-what to do. err, somebody help ? with handphone takde bateri nii, i think i will die if this thg continue to happen.

the weirdest thg about ipoh was the people there. they stared at me without blinking their eyes. almost everyone love to stare at me i tell you. whts wrong with me ? everywhere i went, people stared at me like there's no other human. diorang pandang as if im an artist jea. i was like very-not-comfortable. ada yang, a small lil' girl stared at me with her round nice eyes tak berhenti henti then she lost her mom. many thgs happened, weird thgs.

as i arrived home, i on my handphone and too many msgs masuk. i read one by one and there it is, wan ahmad said 'dalam perjalanan balik ?' i knew tht he already off his phone. so, there's nothing i could do. and after tht i nagged and nagged. my stu*** brother slept at my room and it was in big messed. urgghhhh ! i felt like killing himm ! so tht night i spent the whole night cleaning up the room plus texting siti syahira and ahmad zoriff :) **he is not my boyfriend yet (:

okay, this morning plk ada orang call. who the heck are youu guys ? i was in sleep mood, so i was mamaii. and then i realised tht was amzar hakim's friend. diorang saje jea kacau. amzar hakim, nanti kauu ! then, ahmad zoriff text me, good morning. awalnya dia bangun.

last day of school -,-

2009-11-13T00:51:00.000-08:00

the last day of school -,-

'gedebuk', i deliberately langgar siti. HAHA, she respond with 'eh ! kau nii,' HAHA. then i entered the class jea, ada some ppl asked napa tak datang ? then, jannah answered it for me. thnks a lot. malas nak jawabb. reading time, i borrowed beh beh punya book, i forgot to bring.

after tht, kami bergotong royong membersihkan kelas. siti , thahira, syiqin and me kena lap tingkap. actually volunteer, baek kan kitorang ? HAHA. tapi kamila orang terakhir siap. memang payah betol. bertungkus lumus kami lap sampai berkilaat.

huh, 'recess time is over' as kak amal said tht, we went straight to line up but suddenly dia berhenti dan jumpa sin yee untuk minta offense slip **tu la kau pakai inai lagii. dia cakap, siti minta tau, bukan dia bagi. baek baek. yela kauu, dh kena mara ngn puan pari pari mmglaa.

'wehh, spot check spot check !' jannah screamed to me. i was like tergamam, then terus 'siti(jerit), handphone kau(bisik).' haa, haa, gelabah kauu siti. she ran as fast as she could and gave it to fara. fuhhh ! then, mmg ada spot check. kami lepaslaa, wohoooo ! tapi rachel, i just couldnt believe tht she brought camera plus phone. she cried and cried after being seized. she called her sister, carissa but what can she do ? i really really sympathy on wht had happened.

before we went back, we made jumble sale. even tho agak lambat but we still bersemangat untuk menjual. me, more to berborak and duduk menulis which was crapping. before balik, i met miss sim, si fatima pon meluahkan perasaan tentang she lost the thg she wanted to give to miss sim. then, i was like went blurr, then i asked about the excessive money from class fund. she asked me to divide sama rata. but masih banyak lebih, about rm 20 over. biarla, buat aku makan.

betol betol before balik, milo suddenly hugged me and said, thnks for making the badges for our class party, making the cards, kaboom class party and everythg. u are really good, i tell you. really good. terharu betol, then rachel pon sama cakap cmtu. i felt like cryingg :D and i hugged almost everyone i met tht i recogniselaa.

surprised after realising ning jie was looking at us with the phone :)

never been more sad

2009-11-12T09:47:00.000-08:00

yeah, im feeling down rght now -,-

tht night, mohd noor call me. err, just like usual. just tht, he kept asking me to be together again, what a hell !

then todayy, he said tht he met someone else. kau ni bangang ker apa ? nak kena pijak betol, fyi kaula laki plg teruk aku pena jumpa. then kau cakap kau tak tahan ngn perangai aku, tak pena hargai kau, then kau ungkit ungkitla macam.dahla kau ungkit ungkit plk, naseb aku tak ungkit. mmg bykla. tak nak jadi lagi cibai kan ? sampai mampusla aku ingat apa kau cakap. dan sebab kau, pintu hati aku officially tertutup. aku nangis gila gila tadi but im fine rght now.
tangisan aku terhenti bila,

zuhdi
si king kong gedikk

budak ini call akuu, dia pggl aku kepeng. HAHA, yela kauu. kau tu king kong ! then dia ckp aku tulang menawan, eh menyirap betol. ingatkan dr mana dia dapat panggilan tuu, rupanya ada budak kat myspace yg cmmnt gmba aku dlm album diyana syaza yang ckp cmtuu. cis,, bedebah kauu. dia sangatla friendly kot, seronokla kalau kawan sebab dia suka buat lawak, kan zuhdii ? tapi aku tak layan over sangatla, sbb dia ade gf whoa. takot plk -,- but seriously aku suka cara dia layan pompuan and dlm masa yg sama dia ade gf. tak over over sgt, aku respectla kauu.

*sory mencarut dan atas kata kata kasar
hanya melepaskan geram dan sebak di dada